hmmm.. my one week break is coming to an end.. am dreading the re-opening of school.. in fact.. i just dread school.. so many deadlines.. so many assignments to meet to do.. bla bla bla.. but.. i also dread this week.. this week is suppose to be happy for me.. because its the HOLIDAYS.. but i'm not happy.. well.. i totally enjoyed my monday of going out with tiff and having fun.. like -duh- who won't enjoy when there's fun? then tuesday.. was slacking at home.. and went for wedding dinner.. suppose to be happy right? but.. wrong wrong wrong.. i came home.. thinking of doing my project research.. switch on the laptop.. cannot boot windows.. arRrgGg.. well.. there's one thing i should apologise about.. and that is swearing.. well.. not the f word.. just having "damn" in every sentence i typed.. i was frustrated.. its only 1 month old.. sigh.. i was so so unhappy.. that i could just explode.. sigh.. on wed.. i went down to toshiba service center.. at kallang... -_-.. yes.. the woman cant find out what's wrong.. the funny thing is.. before i went down.. i called the global support center and they said my RAM the memory migth have problem.. so i told the lady that.. she open up my laptop.. and she took out the RAM and say.. nope.. nothing is wrong.. my gosh.. like you can tell?? then i went for some talk on myamar.. was pretty alright.. yup.. then..went home.. feeling bored and still frustrated.. did my project research on my dad's laptop.. then.. sleep late.. wake up early next day.. went to school to have project discussion.. was quite fruitful i suppose.. ya.. everyone is contributing i suppose.. then i left around 12 to meet dee and fer to do our project. well.. that wasnt really fruitful.. all we really did was to select pictures and scan it in.. yup.. went home.. do project stuff.. and meet up with my group people on friday.. ya.. we split up the work.. and i see joey and xiuwen doing up the itinerary real well.. am very very happy.. costing cant really do much as we dont have alot of cost.. but sijia and yeeyun put in effort to look for the information.. yup.. as for me.. well.. i was doing with liping on justification.. and well.. i did the typing and figuring out.. she din really do much.. it makes me wonder is it she not doing work or is it the way i do work doesnt allow her to help..?? alicia came and bought us breakfast.. so sweet of her.. yup.. then she left and xiuwen msg her.. well.. i took over.. haha.. and alicia suggest that she do the justification on airlines and ask me to assign work to liping.. like how?? arRrgGg.. yes.. i am bad at assigning work.. sigh.. oh ya.. back track to wed.. liping msg-ed me that she want to thank me for everything.. and the everything is everything about me. it feels weird.. i thought no more nonsense from her.. but why does she still like to msg this type of stuff?? i dont know.. am i creating a wall between her and me?? i dont know.. from all these unhappiness.. i am still glad and happy to know that.. i have God with me all the time.. going back into his presence is something so comforting.. so relaxing.. its beyond description.. you know.. all these rubbish thing happening to my life.. i no longer want to face it with m own point of view.. i want to look at the problems i face in His point of view... i am forever grateful to Him.. He is the one who give me the courage to live. to take my next breath.. my next step.. its in Him.. i find real joy.. real peace.. and real love.. its through his creation of people around us like wOah wOah that i can learn to depend.. i am so so thankful for wOah wOah.. having them.. we know that we can share our joy our sorrows.. and just guiding each other to discover to love to learn more about God.. its hard to find a group of friends you can hang out with for fun.. and to have the same passion for God.. well.. i found wOah wOah.. though our schedules clashes.. but i know.. deep down.. we will never forget each other.. yeah.. i miss wOah wOah so much.. how i wish we can meet up soon.. hmmm.. oh well.. i can dont worry about them for God is watching over them.. =D but still i want to thank wOah wOah.. for letting me realise that there are angels on this earth.. haha.. sound so corny.. ah well.. i am getting over on the fact of my laptops files lost.. well.. what can i do.. but i have to depend on God.. yup.. i believe God will bring me through all the rough times.. yes.. though life is short.. but the journey is a tough and long and winding one.. travelling this journey alone will kill me.. but i know that the future is not cloudy anymore.. because i have God.. and He is there to walk with me through this journey called life.. He will be there.. always there.. till we meet in my eternal home.. Heaven.. i look forward to the exciting life i am gonna have.. though its tough.. meeting with disappointments.. rejections.. everything.. but knowing the fact that God is with me.. and i have wOah wOah this group of fantastic friends i have.. i am not fearing..
oh Lord, if i have forgotten you during the week.. i apologise.. i am sorry for hurting you.. it was never my plan and wish to hurt you.. because you who love me so much.. sending your son to die on the cross to save me from eternal suffering.. how could i hurt you.. and so from the bottom of my heart i apologise.. and thank you for forgiving me and loving me.. i can never be happier then ever.. everyday will be the happiest day of my life because you are IN me.. i pray that you would give me the strength the courage to live my daily life.. living a life that is pleasing to you.. its my desire to serve you.. to please you.. oh Lord.. i also pray that you will guide me as i lead the younger ones to knowing you more.. i pray that we would be bonded together having the same passion for YOU.. let the fire light up in each and everyone of theirs.. qing and my heart.. Father Lord.. i also want to pray and thank you for wOah wOah.. amanda lee.. cherie tay.. edlyn lee.. felicia toh.. jaclyn ng.. lim zhonyun.. each of them is an angel.. sent from up above. thank you for bringing us together with the same passion and fun.. pray that we will continue to grow.. grow in love with you and grow in love for each other.. pray that as the majority of them faces stress from the As.. we will not forget to praise you and worship you.. and we will still continue to meet frequently.. just to bring glory to your name.. pray for jaclyn too.. as she have a test tomorrow on sailing.. i pray that everything.. be it the wind etc.. will be to her favour.. let her sail smoothly.. and i pray for safety for her too.. and not only that.. as she faces the challenge of being a teacher.. i pray that you will just bless her and be with her through all the lessons she teaches the students.. i pray for wOah wOah to be a blessing to all their classmates and friends and relatives.. in school and at home.. i also praise you Father for MSG.. they are the greatest.. you have sent uncle blue to guide us.. each and everyone of us.. oh Father Lord.. even as we face difficulties in our daily lives.. i pray and pray that we will learn to depend on you.. and that each and everyone of us.. will be a catalyst.. just spreading love and joy to everyone around us.. i want to thank you for my father mother and sister.. though sometimes i always feel that they dont know me.. but Father.. i'm sorry for feeling that way.. quarrells are unavoidable.. but Lord.. i just pray that we will not react but instead we will respond to whatever the problem and situation we face.. let us never say words that will hurt each other.. i praise you and thank you for always blessing us.. this family.. and i pray that we together a family will bring glory and praise up unto your name.. Lord.. let this short prayer be lifted up into the heavenly realms.. Lord.. i just want to make this commitment to you.. that from today on.. be it 10years or 15years later.. i will and i promise that i will never ever ever stop loving you.. i will never ever ever give up on the love and blessings you have for me.. and no matter how tough the road is ahead of me.. i will go through it.. because i have YOU.. till the day i die.. i will not let go.. i love you Jesus, My Lord, My Saviour.. GOD.. In Jesus Name.
i dont really think this entry makes sense to you all.. but.. let it be.. i am talking to God from here.. haha.. May the Lord bless you if you read this.. nah.. he will bless you even if you dont read..