sigh.. another screwed paper.. but.. i really studied.. and since i did my best.. i believe God sees it.. and he will do the rest.. hah.. met corrin after the paper.. went to white sands.. called edwin tan along.. haha.. played in the arcade.. so fun.. haha.. miss having so much fun with corrin and edwin tan.. haha..
sigh.. anyhow.. is it i who've changed or you? i dont know.. i feel weird talking to you all again.. i want it to be like last sem.. i dont know why i dont know why.. i want things to revert back to last sem.. i once told christine.. as long as you all are happy.. i am happy.. but.. sometimes.. its just weird that we dont really talk much..? i dont know.. maybe what christine say its true.. we belong to different world.. its between the intellectual and the childish one.. hah.. not that i am really childish.. but everytime i am with you all.. i cant or should i say.. i dare not voice out.. i wish to be able to talk topics you all talk about.. so i would be able to join in.. but i cant.. and i dont dare.. i dont know.. even making decisions.. i never once dare make a decision.. and i guess even if i raise up one decision.. its gonna be dumb.. because i never make smart decision.. haha.. i sound as if i am bringing myself down.. but.. i dont know.. i dont feel comfortable.. i mean.. why when i meet the rest i can still talk so much rubbish and have so much fun.. but with you all.. its silence.. dont you all feel weird? oh no.. i should re-phrase.. when you all are together.. its fine.. you all talk alot.. but when i enter into the picture.. there's an awakard silence.. hah.. maybe like what corrin say.. i did this myself.. by drifting myself away.. but did i? or is it after one sem we realise the difference in mentality.. i feel so stupid and dumb.. arRrgGg.. let's just see how things go.. maybe its just me.. arRrgGg.. i am bad at keeping friendship.. damn it.. but.. there's one thing i want to say.. i really do miss you all.. can we ever bring back those stuff? or is it just gone forever..
arRrgGg.. screw it.. am feeling down last week.. feeling down this week.. i am so gonna cling onto GOD now.. cant be bothered with this world.. what's wrong with the world.. or is it just me..? hmmm..