alright.. finally submitted my ttops project this morning.. as i din need to attend sch today.. i've asked alicia and xiuwen to do the printing and submit for me.. i'm too tired to travel down to sch.. i'm practically like a zombie now.. i've never felt so drained before.. and this next coming 3 weeks is gonna kill me as well.. first on the list.. POM project.. its due on monday 21/2 10am.. am screwed cause i've just received the proposal which requires me to edit everything.. and there's minutes of meetings etc.. which i dont know who is gonna do..the presentation for management should be on thurs 24/2 after 11.. and there's econs portfolio due on fri 25/2.. havent touch it yet.. there's ttops presentation on the 28/2.. my cds final project due on 1/3 which i havent started as my teacher havent start teaching.. what else? sigh.. work is piling up week after week days after days.. i feel so drained especially as i'm doing all single handedly.. i'm so frustrated for most of the stuff mentioned above is group work.. but i'm doing it all.. well.. a 7people's work became 3people's work.. like what rubbish larx.. its so tedious... i feel like a zombie now as this whole week.. i have an average of 4hrs sleep everyday? its madness.. like totally.. i feel like i've neglected God in the week.. well.. not this whole week.. but some days.. i really blank out.. i'm sorry.. i need to know how to handle such situations!!.. because of my chracter that's why i'm in this situation.. because i care.. that's why this situations.. i don't know what to do.. i probably breakdown soon.. but i'm standing strong.. clinging hard onto God.. should i write a poor peer appraisal for all of them? because if it's only me commenting.. then the teacher won't bother.. i don't know.. i think my group people make good friends.. but not good workers.. look at the amount of work left undone.. slacking in poly now is very wrong because they've shorten our sch term because of the shifting in academic calendar.. but its so so not fair to us.. i feel like crap now.. the sch's system is so so screwed.. having open house in the middle of our project submission.. expect people to help.. and then our projects how? no extendsion of dateline.. like so annoying larx... now i dont even know whether are we doing project over the weekend or is it one man show again.. i want back last sem life.. though there's so much work.. at least the group i'm in.. everyone feels responsible.. i've got a very responsible leader and very responsible group mates.. they made me enjoy group meetings and group project.. well.. not all.. but at least 3 of them made me feel good.. fer.. christine and cassand.. they are the ones whom i can depend on working together in the group last sem.. or better still.. the computer project.. fer dee christine.. we are like superb larx.. but now.. who can i depend on? in my group.. no one is particularly good in anything.. but so what.. as long as you are willing to put in the effort.. we can do well.. but look who's putting in the effort? i dont know.. i feel so.. i dont know what to say.. if you are from my this sem's group.. and reading this.. i'm sorry.. but you guys really dont work well.. except for xiuwen and alicia for ttops and sijia for POM.. xiuwen is like super busy with IG.. but.. she make the effort to take the initiative to do brochure.. when i comment on the work.. she will improvise it.. alicia.. she is the only one who is sharing with me the work load.. yes.. she is the leader.. but sometimes some leader dont bother.. sijia.. she is a big slacker.. but at this crucial point.. she finished up the whole proposal.. though i have yet to start editing.. but its already alot of worked done.. though there's stuff like minutes for meetings and stuff.. yups.. the rest.. i dont know what you all are doing.. or rather the other 2.. because yy does helped when we ask and the quality of work is good.. i dont want to talk about quantity now.. i talk about quality.. ok.. i more or less mentioned the names of my whole group except for 2.. if you are reading this.. do reflect and dont do it to your next sem group people.. oh well.. maybe its me.. thinking that you all cant do or whatsoever.. but search your heart and tell me.. have you ever been concern about the project.. i hear no words of care and concern about the project from you.. because when i'm all stressed up and stuff.. its only alicia and xiuwen there to encourage me and to care and bother about the project.. thank god for alicia and xiuwen.. its not the end of my ranting.. but apparently.. stuck myself to the com for so many days has caused me to have some back ache.. sigh.. i wish you all could just leave me alone.. sch work everything.. just go away.. 3 weeks left of sch.. is it good or bad? God Bless you if you're reading this... hah..