today.. was a whole day jam packed of events.. first was the city tour which started off real boring but ended up very interesting.. learning more of the different religions.. and asking or rather bombing qns till people cant ans.. i do find joy in that.. guess this is another side of me.. *shrugs* after the city tour.. was back in sch.. went over to lunch with alex.. zifu.. hao.. and gladys..yup.. has been some time since we last sat together.. all the 46 people.. really miss the fun and laughter.. yup.. after lunch.. went back sch for archery.. and i'm loving it each time i set my hands on the bow.. the concentration.. the calm mind.. all that is needed to shoot bulls eyes..its all that i want.. yup.. both of us made it to the sch team.. well.. there's some phrasing problem.. its actually accepted to the team..does it make a difference? *shrugs* but the weather was really bad.. and i guess it kind of worsen my cough.. yup.. had fun shooting.. though there's one or two time i shot over the board.. haha.. will have to go gyming to improve i guess.. haha.. after all these crap.. made my way to church.. i was feeling rather heavy emotionally and spiritually.. have no idea why.. went for prayer meeting.. and we prayed for revival stirred among the youths heart.. i was still chirpy then i guess.. everything changed after worship.. and when we went to this qns.. Do you love your friends?? the first person that came to my mind was Dee.. i guess she is one friend whom i love dearly.. after Dee was Fer followed by Ter and Alex.. the qns came.. do i love them alot?? if so.. why did i not preach to them.. i qns myself.. am i a good friend.. so uncle allan asked us to pray.. and i couldnt pray.. my mind was really empty.. i was praying in tongues.. hoping God would hear my heart calling out for help.. today's sermon is on Friends.. if i love them.. i would want them to join me in eternity.. but why am i not preaching to them.. i was finding excuse.. like.. i've talked so many times to them about God.. but they dont feel it.. i dont know.. where's the urgency i am suppose to feel? at the end of the sermon.. i concluded i really love Dee and Fer and Ter and Alex.. so i want to set myself to pray for them.. that one day they will receive Christ as their Lord and Saviour.. it doesnt bother me whether is it me bringing them to Christ.. all it matters to me is that they would receive Christ soon.. i dont want when we're old.. and die.. and up in heaven.. i look down and see them there.. it pains me.. just in church earlier on.. i felt my heart ache.. aching for what.. is it because they arent saved? i really dont know.. but i want to do something.. it doesnt really help in setting my mood right when my parents came to fetch both my sis and myself home.. sure enough.. i appreciate them.. but i know that they rushed down.. and.. my sis quarrelled with them in the car.. these quarrells have been on the increase.. i have no idea why.. my sis is having comments about everything.. it annoys me too.. sometimes i do feel that she feel that she is all so smart bla bla bla.. she answer my question sometimes like looking down on me.. sigh.. i need to pray for my sis.. i dont really care how she treat me.. but i want her to respect my parents.. i guess that my sis feel that my parents pamper me more then her.. because my parents got me a laptop that cost 2799.. aint cheap alright.. but.. it cant be helped.. because my com crashed.. then my phone got cranky.. so my dad thought why not change.. sure i do appreciate.. but i am paying for part of all these accessories.. just that she dont know.. my parents really pamper both of us.. i'm glad that we attended kenneth copeland sermon yesterday(friday) because he talked about worrying.. really hope that my parents wont spend so much time worrying for both my sis and myself.. we are growing up.. shouldnt we be putting them at ease instead?? but my sis is getting ruder each day.. i cant say her.. because she will say me back.. so.. what can i say and do but pray that my sis will change.. i think my parents both were really upset just now by her rudeness.. sigh.. ok.. should i go and do my work.. or start working tomorrow? i think the latter. i need to rest.. take a break from all these nonsense.. till then.. i will pray for everyone.. =) God Bless You!!