*munch**munch* i'm currently having nougat for my lunch.. ya... well.. firstly because when i'm stress.. i dont eat.. secondly.. i'm too lazy to cook.. so make do with the nougat my dad bought from aussie land.. haha..
well.. am i prepared for POM? i aint sure.. i know i study really hard.. remembering some facts.. then the same thing came to me.." everything can fail me.. but GOD will NEVER fail me" i dont know.. kept having this sentence popping in my head.. i would very much guess its the holy spirit telling me to rely on God.. which i am doing.. am i? i dont know.. all i know is for today's paper.. i'm lifting it up to God.. because i'm so never gonna do well by my own strength.. and.. i am not gonna be ambitious.. i just want to do well to bring God the greatest honour and glory.. yep.. my heart is set to doing that..
alrighty.. am done with my 2 nougats.. seriously.. am not feeling hungry.. just eat to have some stuff in my tummy.. then i wont get gastric.. haha.. hmmm.. room is in a mess.. and its a good thing its exam week.. for my mum wont nag.. hahaha..hmm.. left 2 more chaps to revise.. and i'm done.. and am prepare for the paper.. am so gonna go in to the examination hall.. and write everything i know.. i know God has gone there way before hand to make paths straight for me.. i believe.. i really do..
i guess all the emotions of being down and stuff are really the devil's scheme of bringing me down.. and i'm always falling into it.. like fun.. but falling down dont mean i will never get up again.. i'm getting up faster then i thought i would.. yes.. oh.. and thank God.. my eyes no longer red and pain.. its perfect.. yup.. i guess its the tiredness in my eyes.. oh wait.. let me be sad a little while.. this morning when my hp alarm rang for me to wake up to study.. i accidentally drop my phone on the floor.. *cries* ohmygosh.. cant believe i'm so careless... but all bad things ends here!! yep.. God is in charge..
this entry seems to be a pyscho-ing one.. but.. i dont think so.. because i'm convinced of the above stuff.. yups.. God made time to move.. and not pause or stop.. shouldnt we be moving on too.. somethings end.. and we thought its not good to end.. but.. i believe they end for a reason.. corrin.. maybe this ending will be good for you and him.. move on.. because you still have me.. dont dwell anymore of the past.. let it be a sweet memory which you can share with your kids in future.. he might have given you happy times.. but.. if its not God's plan for you.. no matter what and how you try to salvage it.. it will end one day.. let this hurt end earlier.. i'm praying for you.. and like what you said.. you can depend on hui edwin joel and me for emotional support.. you have much reasons to smile.. =D
and that's how the cookie crumbles..
[pretty weird way to end.. but i realise i need to bathe and finish my 2 chaps.. ]