*tick**tick**tick* yes, the time is ticking, and i'm sitting in front of my computer, thinking what should i do to curb boredom. i really should get myself a good book to start reading, get my vcd player fix to watch vcd, get myself to do some things that can keep me company. haha. and i have no idea what's up with my playlist. put to shuffle mode but always playing the same old song. so annoying. haha. i'm sorry, just finding fault in everything because i'm bored! haha.
look at the crontradictions human created for ourselves. when we're oh so busy, we complain we dont have time to sleep, dont have time to relax, dont have time to rest, dont have time to catch up with friends etc etc. but when we have so much time, we want more things to do, we prefer to do work. MADNESS! i believe many of us have witness this contradiction we have created for ourselves ya? haha.
i think i have fallen really deep for canto songs. haha. they seem to mean more? i mean, its better than techno and stuff. haha. sometimes, we got to agree, the chi, canto songs are more soothing for the ear. and yes, i'm reminded by the KTV experience when i was with FBIc camp committee. fel commented that ALL chi songs have the word love inside. haha. i think, most people, song writers, pen their feelings better when they are heart broken. haha. i'm mad. i'm sorry. but it would be good if they have more songs that revolve round friendship, round life as a whole instead of focusing on love. i mean, love between a guy and a girl, it isnt what life is really about is it? sometimes i see my friends falling in and out of love so easily, i wonder, are they happy inside. i mean, love can mean alot. like my love for my friends, my love for my family, my love for technology, my love for God, my love for nature etc etc. but i believe that love between a guy and a girl, is actually something that is i won't use the word divine. but think along that line ya. and why are people misusing it by going into so many relationship? i mean, yes, i have not been in one and yes, i do not know the sweetness, but, are you that mature to handle the problems you will face? you cant put breaking up at the tip of your tongue so oh so easily you get what i mean. you are suppose to mean something to the other party. no? and at our age, are we really ready for a commitment we arent sure of? haha.
i am still firm on my stand that love is not a feeling! feeling fades. it does. i believe love is really a commitment made by both parties. and so, it doesnt stop for guy and girl relationship. it leads on to friendship family etc etc. ya, like what kind of commitment can you make for your friend? something like, be with your friend through thick and thin. i mean, dont pay lip services. do it through your actions. when you love someone, means that someone mean something in you. a part of your heart is given to them. heard of the story of this guy who got such a nice and beautiful heart so flawless that everyone just marvel this beauty. but what is true beauty? its the man, whose heart has lots of scars, different patches of different hearts. because he has given part of his heart to someone, and that someone return that part. this is what i call, a place in a person heart. how many of us, living in this world, actually have the flawless heart? i guess many. because all of us are just paying lip service by saying, yes i will stick with you through thick and thin. but when problem arise, we cant even see their shadow. sad and scary fact huh? you know, its not the words that touch people life. its the action. really. when someone say something sweet, i will just go oh how sweet. but when someone do something sweet to me, i really am touched by it. you know, its hard to have that feeling nowadays from people around us? haha. is growing up that scary? haha.
have worked in a few places before. and i met different people. and actually, i feel those people who dont have much education, they are more HUMAN then those who got lots of education. i mean, its good to have ambition ya, but having someone who is more HUMAN then someone who is more rich? haha. which will you choose. i would label the person who is not rich, but manage to touch much more life as a success in that person life. you can be rich, and you are not humble, you think oh so great and highly of yourself, i tell you, you are the greatest failure in life. because you havent learn the importance of humility. haha. have you wonder, is education sometime the root of evil? there's so many contradiction in life. no education, you cant do anything, with education, there's a high chance of getting yourself all evil and scheming. haha.
alright, as all of you know, i am studying hospitality and tourism, and so, i will end up in the service line. do you know, its such a pleasure to serve customers who are nice? who dont put themselve up like they are oh so highly? even if they ask me to run extra errand, i will be more than glad. but there are some people, who are filthy rich, but their character is just bad. they treat you as if you are their servant, as if they are so high up there, as if you are the lousiest person. hey, dont be surprised. because i met with such customers before. and i seriously dont like them. you know, i ever chat with a customer for close to 2 hours? he is a successful businessman. have business in england and australia. and he was just please with my service and started chatting with me. i mean, its really nice you know. i guess, maybe its my own point of view that people should behave this way. but i guess, its a nice thing to experience, where customer dont treat you like you are so lowly, treat you with due respect, appreciate you. i think, there are lots of people who are like that, but, a few black sheep just got to spoil the image. haha.
but i think, everyone's work and behave are for certain reason behind certain motives ya. haha. like why do i work and bring myself down to serve. i must be frank. it was really for the money at some point of time. its until i met nice patrons that i feel, i want to be this you know oh so noble person wanting to serve everyone. haha. and of cause when i see babies, i treat the parents better too. wahahaha. ok yes i know i'm bias. cant be help. anyway, i think i typed enough nonsense. shall stop here. take care people.