hmmm.. cant help but a feel a tinge of saddness.. its aint exactly because i am sad but i've become sad.. oh my gosh.. what am i saying? *rolls eyes*
but you know, witnessing your buddy feeling so so sad over a breakup, although i had tons and millions of comments to want to make her stand up, but just feeling her saddness this time round, i couldnt force myself to be harsh to her, i refuse to witness those tears that threaten to fall. i refuse. i'm at loss as to where she can find joy already. been praying so so hard that she can rely on God. but she is refusing help. WHY?! i've told you time and time again that you just got to trust and believe that God will answer your prayers. or is it because he is just oh so bothering you. why let yourself be shaken? you said no you'll never look back. no you won't give in. but you're really showing signs. and i do know if you give in, you surely wont be happy! been accompanying you or you accompanying me a few days already. but i aint helping you get over it. maybe i'm just not the person to bring you out of it. maybe there's an angel, that i've been praying for you, on his/her way to come to bring you out. (god sent one that is) i will still keep you in my prayers. because no matter if my words are few or not. be it i talk to you or not. i care for your happiness. because you gave me my fair share of happy times back in secondary school times. and now that you're fallen ill, i do hope that its not because of all the crying and worrying that is causing it. sigh. please be happy soon. and just a note to add. you said i got greater faith, i actually dont. we're all growing together. i've had my rough times too. its all in the mind-set. i believe God has shown himself strong to you shown himself real to you. go back to him and he will give you rest. in a verse in matthew it said "the world is full of trouble, but take heart! i have overcome the world." i dont know is it the exact word, because i never refer to the bible, but ya, you do get the gist of it.
alright, was thinking of going over to your place, but, i shall let you have your own time to think through stuff. if you're reading this, and you know who you are, need me just call me. =)