the above is the song that is playing in my blog now. by brian littrell. do you consider listening to the song again and again some sort of medidating the words? ah, whatever it is. i'm thinking alot more into the song now. In Christ alone I place my trust And find my glory in the power of the cross In every victory let it be said of me My source of strength, my source of hope Is Christ alone. indeed. this line is so true. many times we get so tied down by this world. we work hard strive hard, and then leaving ourselves all drain out all tired out. only through christ that i'm able to draw strength from, to walk through all these trials i have in life.

its always like that, when life is all good and you take it for granted. therefore not cherishing it well. in the process, hurting God who love us so much. i don't know for you, but i guess, i hurt God alot of time. there's no reason for God to forgive me, but his great mercy and love did. i can only be thankful and grateful my whole life. i cannot imagine if my life is totally wiped out without God. because with Him, i wouldnt have this life that i am having now.

anyhow, its almost the end of week1 for me and for many of the others in tp. taking bus and later changing to MRT at kovan or just taking MRT straight from pasir ris all the way to harbour front, then the change to bus to sentosa and later blue line to get to school has been my new transport route.waking up extra early to travel. cannot afford to be late. the madness weather. the peacocks. the price. ahh. all these are happening because i'm at tas. alright. its actually aint that bad, i just make it sound bad that's all.

hmm. i never really make friends. just said hi and bye to those who are suppose to be in my class. i guess its gonna be just me and my group mates for this sem again. not gonna know anyone else. and i do realise i havent meet dee and fer at all. been seeing boon christine ter alex kelly carene sijia pohchin quite abit. *shrugs* dreading school. imagine wearing my office suit once every week. carrying the super big bag to school once a week because i have to keep my chef's uniform, knife set, shoes and of cause my notes and stuff. arRgGg. driving me nuts. but oh well, the cooking is getting me a little excited. hahas.

i do realise the lack of depth in my entries. like always. haha. but nothing interesting has really happened to me. either that or i'm just too lazy to blog.

anyhow, was chatting with lee during the week. forgot which day, it made me realise how much i miss last november and december. especially FBIc. the best things that can happen to me happened. the friends that i have are no just friends, but my sister/brother, my love one. i love each and everyone of them. i hope that my second sem din occur. i hope that things will stay and remain as that in FBIc. but we all should know better than that. time waits for no man. so i can only treasure things and happenings going on now.

you know, typing all these, i imagine myself 5 to 8years down the road, reading it again and shaking my head for all my childish thoughts. but oh well, its not quite that childish for me YET. all i want in life is really simple. but i have to always go through all the complications. i guess, there's never a smooth sailing life journey we will have. that's why God is so important in my life. but contradictions here. he is important but yet, i do hurt him sometimes. sigh. humans. *shake head*

He blessed me at 11:04 PM