i've been doing some blog surfing because at the same time, i'm trying to get to hotmail and connect to msn. which really, isnt helping at all. my mail is obviously jammed up because i have yet to check it for let's say 12days? i'm getting quite annoyed. and i hit my forehead against the tip of my table when i'm sleeping. great. and my timetable is super duper packed. i'm not in the same class as my buddies. what else, i realise i'm growing up and cant depend on friends and my parents for long. but, is life that bad afterall?
if life was bad, would i be able to travel to aussie land like say 4 to 5 times? to america cities like LA, san fransico, las vegas? to hong kong? to malaysia(mostly with church)? to chiang mai? to europe to places like amsterdam, brussel, brugge, paris, comar, cologne, frankfrut, blackforest region, lucern, milan? ok, perhaps i am the more fortunate one. but if life was bad, how come you can have your stomach filled with food whenever you're hungry? oh, another fortunate being. so if life was bad, how come you have a place to sleep? another fortunate being? then how come you dont have cancer, dont have aids? another fortunate being? then how come you can breathe?! this is not about being a fortuante being, this is about your view of life.
if my view was negative, going to europe wouldnt be nice good and fun to me. i would start to think what if the plane crash, what if i get robbed. i mean, we are humans, sometimes its hard to not think negative. but concluding your whole life as f***ed up, is it called for? no. because if it is, how come you know how to smile? dont blame God, dont blame anyone for whatever plight you are in for you are the cause of your plight. its your thinking. i know its hard to change our thinking, but why not try to change your thinking. you probably make a good turn here by making your life more enjoyable.
let's say we are all super duper healthy and live up to erm 75, without sickness and disease but just die of old age. this 75years is really neither long nor short. but why dont make the best of it? i mean, work will definately steal our time away with friends and sometimes family, so shouldnt we cherish more the time we get to spend with them instead of wasting your brain cells to think and think of some motive they have behind it? many of times i do think humans are skeptical being. dont you agree?
you know, its perfectly normal to get upset to get frustrated with the life you have. but let it pass. if you hold on to all this frustrations sadness hatred anger etc, are you any happier? you are actually causing your life to be more miserable! because all these negative emotions are burdens. burdens that we can never understand and comprehend why we ever take it up. silly arent we?
dont say life is a joke, because its a gift that we failed to realise. a life that is limited by time. and often we fail to hold on tight to it. we always say if only we can if we only it was different. why not make the if only a reality? we always enjoy babies around us, because in their world, there's innocence, no suspicious, no skepticism, no doubts, no whatever. they are pure. but people say we wont get it in the working world, we wont get it when we are old. why? because humans cause this difference. fight for status, for money, for power. but at the end of the day, you will still be in the same type of plight, that is in a coffin, later, burnt to ashes. be it poor or rich, healthy or unhealthy, handsome/pretty or ugly, powerful or not powerful. that is our same ending.
this life, we are given a definate beginning and definate ending. its the process that make our life a story that last. so do you want to "read" yourself, your life full of bad stuffs? funny how we can write all this but not doing so.
oh well, the above was inspired when i came accross this friend's blog regarding life. i might not make sense to you, but i think i make sense to myself. *shrugs*
i am truely in love with this life i have. because putting God first, allows me to have so many things in life i never regret having. of cause, i do sometimes neglect God, but he will always be my sole motivator. he motivates me to live this life to the fullest. to enjoy every single moment i have with my loved ones. sure i do complain and whine about life, but at the end of it, i know He is the answer to everything.
going to europe really isnt just about fun for me. its an eye opener to witness the beautiful creations of God. seeing the river rhine, rhine falls, the historical buildings, the brain God gave to people to be able to build the eiffel tower, the wonderful architecture houses they have, the nice weather. God remind me of His presence time and time again in this trip. It was supposed to be quite warm now over in europe, but before we went over, the north wind was blowing towards europe, and that's why i get to enjoy the cold weather(although i was wrapped up with 5 layers of clothes), whenever we are on the coach and its raining, when we get down, the rain will stop. i too witness and was reminded of God's promise because i saw the most beautiful rainbow ever in my life. i saw it twice. and both have double rainbow, the colours was beautiful. and then, one of the optional tour we take, which is the visit to the palace of versailles, the day before we wanted to go, the workers were on strike again(they are always on strike) the next morning, we got news that the strike ceased and therefore we get to visit the beautiful palace. ah. isnt God great? i have yet to end. normally during this period of time, the snow mountain in switzerland(mount titilis) wouldnt have any snow because its gonna be summer soon. but when we went up, it was snowing!! incredible.
the beauty of God marvellous creation was place right before me. what can i say? nothing. yes. nothing. i have nothing else to say. the pictures prove it all. but i'm too lazy to post any here. haha. i think this is a very long post. but some i type earlier in the day. yup. alright. that's all from me. need to rest or else i cant go for training tomorrow. or rather, the laziness will prevent me from going. hahaha.