we work so hard, so hard till we dont understand why. but is it necessary to work so hard. in the process, are we blinded by our goal that we missed it? sigh. i'm so uptight, frustrated, anxious,excited. (insert your own adjectives). sentosa, is it something that nice to look forward to? sch term seems really dreadful for me suddenly. perhaps its the bad start of not attending the orientation and basic entrepreneurship course. its not that i choose to right? or maybe i really did choose. afterall life is about choices and you choose one of the choices right?
you know, i really have lots of question marks. what is going on, how do i get there, what am i expected to do etc. these question marks are driving me NUTS. i hate it when i dont know what are the things i am supposed to do. so maybe that's why every surprise i have i will find out in the end. anyway, that's not the topic here. there's this kind of love hate thingy in me regarding school. perhaps is last sem incident leaving me very very bitter towards this sem. perhaps. or maybe i'm just being more cautious, protecting myself.
the school holidays for the jc people are drawing really close. i do hope we will have one day to meet up together. it seems like everyone is gonna be out of singapore this june except for cherie. haha. told lee i will drag cherie to accompany me for lectures -kidding-. i do hope that one day will not be too much from all of us to squeeze out from our busy schedules. fel's competition is this thursday. i was holding onto hope that i can go and then my eyes tricked me into seeing wednesday's schedule -dangs- i recalled and check again. shucks. i finish class at 4!! her competition ends at 415. there's no point in me going man. though i very much want to witness her victory, i guess uncle blu they all will do just that on behalf of MSG. haha. will pray for her. i think talking about my church activities and friends really cheer me up. and i do realise how much space they take up in my blog. haha. oh well. let's hope term test dont fall during cell retreat. or else even at night i wouldnt be able to make it.
you can see how much distress school brings me to. i dont understand alot of actions done by people sometimes too. like the big hoo haa of getting attached. you know those kind of dramas you see in school. i guess i better dont touch that topic. or else people will say i'm anti-relationship which i'm not. but, aiya, too long a story to share for now, i will share one day. for now, i think i should concentrate of getting myself all hyped up again.