sunday sunday sunday. it will always be the happiest day of my week. wanted to give myself a well-deserved break this weekend, but sadly, i picked up my notes last night before i sleep. probably gonna do so again later. reading through those project stuff, completing tutorials and doing those necessary reading up. woosh.
had small cell today. and i was really kindda disappointed with the attendance. i can never accept the reason of oversleeping and thus unable to turn up. but i din bring my contact list today to call them up one by one. oh well, today's cell was a little blank i think? maybe its because i myself aint really in the right mind to be teaching also.
met up with cherie and xian after cell. but xian left cause we will be meeting the wohwoh people. and he claims that we are mad. haha. had a long chat with cherie on the way to the airport. and its great knowing her better and that she's comfortable sharing with me. reached there pretty early like say 1145 when we're meeting the rest at 1230. haha. so we kindda shopped cold storage and bought some stuff for zhon and jac. we bought them branded water-vodavoda. haha. anyhows, its pretty weird, the people sending are earlier then the people who are going. haha. when it was like 1230, lee, edlyn, fel and of cause cherie and myself were off to search for an ATM machine. and of cause, the usual of disturbing lee. when we came back up to the departure hall, jac and zhon they were all at row3. so we went over and gave them the "surprise" gifts. containing vodavoda, chocolates, and chocolates biscuts. and they were "touched". haha. took many photos and so, the five of us (lee, ed, fel, cherie and myself) felt as if we were going for the trip too. we appear in most photos. haha. had lunch at sakae. we ate alot. what made us stop was the fact we ate 37plates worth of food and we were not having the buffet. haha. anyway, by that time, jac and zhon got to gather already. so we settled the bill and off we went back to the departure hall. took photo (again) and sang happy birthday to uncle blue and finally, said a prayer for the team to thailand. woosh. they will be blessed. actually the 5 of us who went to send them off, we very much want to go for this mission trip too. but i have sch and skipping sch really is a nono for me. i want to go china!!! cherie wants to go cambodia though. and fel wants to go china cause the church there are underground and she find it challenging. haha. probably join the mission trip in nov to lombok. hmm. will pray about it.
left the airport like say 230. and they were kindda deciding where to go. i was really reluctant to spoil the supposed fun they should have. but knowing that my dad aint in a really good mood today, i thought of going home earlier. or if they dont mind tampines i would still tag along. they were really nice to be accomodating or so cherie say of them wanting to see tampines. because all my church friends happen to stay really central of towards the west. still, i appreciate that effort of not making me feel bad. we caught mr and mrs smith which was really a good movie. really worth my 9.50. worth so much better then madaganscar. haha. i would give around 3.5 to 4 stars out of 5. but i wasnt actually feeling well. my whole body is aching like so horribly. after the movie, went over to tampines mall where they had gelare while i went shopping for dinner. RIGHTS.
reached home like say 640? hmm. pretty late. but thank god my mum wasnt angry YET. no idea for my dad as he went for the prayer thing. anyhow, i lost my thumb drive in church. my dad is so gonna murder me. i better save up money and get myself another one soon. project time needs LOTS of usuage on my thumb drive. oh wells.
you know, i really thank God for giving me this temporary relief of stress, or sadness and blank-ness(if there's such a word) i'm stressed by so so so many things. this sem is probably my most stress sem. imagine just the starting of the sem, and i'm already like that. the overwhelming of sadness and blank-ness is really driving me crazy at times. i dont know how to handle. i'm like being force into this corner which i can find no place to retreat, to move out. is it because the situation is really that bad, or have i not yet seek the being in my heart, in me? i want back the freedom of emotions, and thinking. i feel extremely restricted. i need a strong wake up call. i'm feeling weak all over, and now, i dont know where i'm heading. there's nothing that is able to put the spark of interest over my course now. is it really still getting use about TAS? oh well, what's the point of thinking that much. hmm. gonna go do some work and pack my stuff for tomorrow.
dear lord. you've sent the team to thailand to cambodia for a reason. the team has been obedient to listen to your still small voice in calling them for mission. oh lord, as they are there to spread your love and be a blessing to the people over there lord, take away all barriers or whatsoever they might face there. watch over them, watch over the people lord. continue speaking to them and showing your mighty power to them. let them not be discouraged but grow to be a stronger person as they face the different trials over there. oh lord, its not a easy task to preach of your love so openly in countries that are so pious over buddhism. so lord, give them the strength. keep them safe as they go about the different activities. let them be a light shining for you over in thailand and cambodia. thank you lord for your gracious love for us, for them, for everyone. and lord, for those who are going to china on tuesday, lord, prepare their heart and prepare the way for them. that everything wil be smooth sailing over there. and lord, let all the mission trippers heart be sensitive to your heart felt burden. and let them bring home testimony that can shake singapore! oh lord, for those who arent going due to the many reasons, oh lord, just continue to bless us and show us your will. lord, if we've neglected you in some ways, forgive us lord. teach us and mould us to be a person you want us to be. let nothing hinder us from experiencing and worshipping you. to the great and almighty god i pray to. in jesus name, Amen.