often through all the difficult times, the trials, the problem we face, we lose ourselves. we question and doubt. but never find the peace and the answer. then we ask ourselves why do we have to go through all these. is it really necessary? the bible says, the trials that we are put in, are trials to make us a stronger person. i guess, its true. i mean, how can the bible lie. (if you aint a christian then dont comment on the bible)
i havent exactly got over the downs. but i decided to not care about it. its getting extremely tiring. especially since i've yet to get use to TAS and with the work load piling up like nobody's business, too busy to allow the downs to get to me. if letting go was ever easy, please enlighten me. i guess, both letting go and holding on are tough. maybe humans are wired up according to the world, which doesnt allow happiness to last.
i do believe of getting and holding onto happiness, joy and peace from up above, God. but again, i guess i'm still pretty weak in my faith, for when it comes to school work, school project, i rely simply too much on my own strength. its high time i wake up.
have lots of laughter during discussion as our ideas were creative but yet, simply absurd. we probably could evolve better ideas through our crazy ones. will have to put on my thinking cap tomorrow to try to come out with more. need to meet up with the facts we found. seriously, i dont know whether to be happy about my group or not. they are really a bunch of wonderful friends. laughter always reign instead of voice. very chi speaking though and we digress simply too much. but i'm just glad i have a perfectionist-boon! one of my group mates commented i'm a perfectionist too. haha. i guess, to a certain extend. i expect alot from myself but not from people. oh wells.
ok. i'm so tired i can probably sleep forever. but not forgetting my prayers for the mission trippers..
dear lord, another wonderful day has passed and you've indeed taught me to let go. maybe i did not grasp the whole concept, but at least i'm letting go abit. praise you for the wonderful things and people you have placed in my life. and lord, the obedient ones in thailand, cambodia and china needs your direction. so father lord, wont you clear up the mist ahead of them and provide clear and straight path for them. give them generous heart, to give freely and not expect any return. father, let love overflow in their heart. let not the devil have any sort of advantage to cease the passion in their heart. you know they hunger and thirst for your presence, so wont you lord, as you shower your love and blessing in singapore, do so too for the people in thailand, cambodia, china and many other nations. i praise you for you are wonderful. i praise you for you are great. i praise you for you are merciful. i praise you for you are gracious. most importantly, i praise you for you are God. let the mission and passion never cease in all our hearts. in jesus most precious name, amen!