sometimes, the best helping hand, is a good, firm push.
i know i shouldnt be typing all these nonsense. but i dont know what to do. and i'm seriously in a loss. ok, what else will i fret about but school work. yes, i'm feeling the tension. when things are not even settled, i realise i have so many deadlines coming my way. i'm stress, uptight, and whatever you can think off. when its not something that can be done by one person, but its a group effort.
no! its not anyone's fault in my group. they are nice people. but its just the time. time is running out. and i just discover that in 2 weeks time, i need to submit a proposal for my culi sci. and its the whole class submitting one proposal, or is it a group. see, i dont even know. its not my fault. the lecturer din specify. and upon submission of the proposal, a trial cooking should have been done. how the hell am i gonna do that. pardon me for my language. and hey, its not just our cohort, its with people from the htb. and our timetable freaking clashes alright. and what the lecturer say, you just gotta be committed and find time out. hey, the sch closes at 7, we got to evacuate. we have other projects too. how do we get a trial kitchen?! hello, in 2 weeks time, i need to get my individual project done. i need to get the survey done. i need to get the fila done. there's more, but i dont know what. so tell me, is time on my side? its not as if i dont have a home to return to. the displeasure just come. and i couldnt stop it. i think sometimes, its really unreasonable. we have no prior knowledge on so many things. and now, you just bombard us. i mean, i know we gonna face it in the working society, but. arRgGg. i'm controlling my language here.
i'm that stress to breaking down. because no one knows what's going on. dont tell me just everyone is going through. give me a solution!!you know, i freaking miss home larx. sigh. independence. is this what it is now? must i go through all these now? maybe i'm panicking a little too fast, but, really, time is running out. sigh. show me a way.
i'm done with my little research. din do much. but i'm really zonked now. so sorry. i will just try to contribute as much as i can tomorrow during project discussion. gotta wake up early. so ciao. and to those who arent feeling well, please rest more and drink lots of water.