today is i would say a good day? had recognition of good efforts for the project. although i din get much credit of anything, but the whole group idea and work was impressing our tutor. he was praising us for our great and wonderful ideas. i mean, its the first time i got praised for good ideas and works. and i can see the honour the whole group had. we were really thankful for the tutor's recognition. gotta work harder!
went for training just now, and beginning was really messy. whole body was aching which obviously means i am in the wrong position and stuff. coach have a few pointers for me, and the next few ends was pleasing to me. got really tired and so, i went home around 9. reached home at 10. arRrgGg. i'm really drained.
actually i dont know what i'm doing or anything. i feel lost larx. everytime i'm home, i will go, what's next. but when i'm in sch, and there's people around me, i can probably be crazy non-stop. not that i'm acting, but, just trying to make the effort of small talking. oh well. i dont feel any drive or passion. felt as if i lost it. the travelling is draining me. and with 5 projects, i can probably just stay in sentosa and not go home.
arrRgGG. i'm super frustrated. i need someone to come and cheer me up like now! i probably need a punching bag or something. arRRgGg. gotta do work. sighs.