i've just taken the stand of a murderer once again. yes. i'm guilty. i cant believe i did it with my own hands. i'm so ashamed of myself. i've murdered the friends of many, friends of the earth. i've murdered the trees!! ok. i've got an instigator. that's Temasek Polytechnic. haha. ok. i'm crapping. just finished printing tons of notes. actually i printed it like around 4. oh well. i feel really cooling at my neck area because i just cut my hair. feel like i'm back to sec sch days. haha. my hair is quite short as compared to my previous hair cuts larx. but i'm fine with it. the weather is really horrible. lots of people getting sick. so people. take care! i think i should paragraph. haha.
had cell this morning and i wasnt really happy because little ones arent quite open. but come to think of it, i've got no one to blame except myself. i should have spent more time trying to get them to open themseles up to the cell. will have to work on it. yes, with God, nothing is a barrier!anyway, went over to choy's place to have cell. was on psalms 23. the all famous "the lord is my shepherd.." i'm finding tune to God's place in me again.
when our life seems smooth sailing. when we get busy. i guess, we tend to neglect the one key person in life. God. i never felt so emotionally strong towards God. how much i love him. not until when i realised that i was never happy when i had neglected him. i realised that i really couldnt live without him. i realised that he's my only reason to live here. i'm enjoying this feeling of love. He is indeed my First Love.
i suddenly realised that i really love my parents and sister too. i suddenly realised that in this world, they are the people who have seen me grow from a young child to who i am now. i realised who are really important in my life. i realised so many things. all in all within the short span of time in sentosa. i really need to spend time with my loved ones. but in all, i need to learn to manage my time. i do hope that i din realise all these too late.
first love of my life, God. my parents. my sister. corrin, edwin. dee, fer. fel, lee, zhon, cherie, jac, edlyn. tiffany. qing. above are just a few example of people whom i hold very dearly too. i dont think i can afford to lose them. sigh. if only i can manage my time well first, do what is needed. all the rest of my time is definately for them.
i miss something called freedom. i miss FBIc. i miss tp. i miss coral. i miss the younger days. i dont like sch now. but what can i say. i love who i am now. and i definately love the above few plus MSG like nobody's business. oh well. seek ye first the kingdom and all these things shall be added onto you. so. yup.