what you're is God's gift to you. what you make of yourself is your gift to God.
was blog surfing, and chance upon a senior's blog which really enlighten me in some ways or another. well, it really aint his flair in typing, but rather, the article he posted in his blog. i would say, it might really be God speaking to people through that article. i'm thrown out from my whiny mood, to the thinking me. like, have i done anything to give God that nice gift?
why instead of appreciating the beach that is just beside my school, i gotta complain of the long journey. why instead of appreciating the interesting course i have, i gotta complain of the projects, the lecturers, the tutor. are humans like that? always taking and never appreciating? its hard to be always thrown down. hitting the ground is painful. especially falling from a great height. but is the process of falling satan's ploy to take our faith away, or is the process of falling God's work to make us stronger? it probably be satan's ploy to take our faith away from God but God changing it to making us stronger to the trial.
when just studying and meeting the deadlines are tough, how in the world am i gonna survive in a dog eat dog society? i very much dread stepping out into the society. just like how i'm dreading growing up now. i want to go back to mummy's arms. i want to go back to the days when daddy and mummy and sister are the only ones you see after about 6hrs of sch everyday. i guess,that's actually not what i really want to. the fear of the future and the uncertainty is definitely sipping into my life.
you know, i talk to God very long yesterday night. and when i woke up this morning, suddenly something inside me is telling me everything's gonna be alright. i was really feeling so much better. but when discussion of the project begin, its telling me, if we dont buck up, nothing is gonna be alright. we are so lagging behind. is it just us, or the whole cohort. why is it nothing seems clear yet. is it the effort we put are any lesser then our seniors? or are we REALLY still at the "getting-use-to-it" stage. is there time for us to really get use to it?
i probably be seen as a childish freak to you. but yet again, you might be in the same circumstances as me. but whatever it is, i know placing my trust in HIM will never ever fail. and indeed i'm gonna place my trust in HIM. so probably all these whining session should stop.