as i was doing my work, i was chatting with my group mates and friends online (-duh) then i was kindda apologising to my group mates as i was really short tempered earlier on. they were talking about understanding different people working style. i do understand that fact and should learn to accept.
but what really gets on my nerve when people always doubt me. for example, when i tell someone my idea towards certain matter, they refuse to believe my idea is feasible. and i kindda feel like my idea is all trash. but when the tutor commented my idea was the best way to solve that problem, they just kept quiet. i mean, i dont expect much acknowledgement. all i ask is to give my ideas the benefit of a doubt.
i cannot stand it too when people are just sitting around and waiting to get the marks. i mean, i've given in last sem. but it doesnt mean i will do so this sem. not naming anyone as i'm just saying what i do not like. and of cause, like from my previous post, i definitely hate it when the whole meeting does not meet any objective. its like, meeting for project became some kind of chilling out session. should really look into this matter.
one of my friend say that sometimes in this world, we will have to wear a mask. i'm like ok. i've wore mask for almost whole of my upper pri and lower sec days. and i'm really sick and tired. i want to be me!! its pretty obvious that if i'm quiet, firstly i aint comfortable, then its i dont want to reveal much of myself. my friend ask, am i happy. i was like of course i am. i am being myself. then she ask then what am i unhappy about. i'm unhappy about the work left undone. arRgGg.
i dont know. maybe i am a little perfectionist when comes to work. that's why my business proposal comes out with 2 version. and i'm really not done yet. will have to study accounts tomorrow. arRrgGg. i'm looking forward to the sunrise today. because new day, new start.<-- courtesy of kaili.
things arent smooth sailing, but i have to take heart that christ is with me. *get this in your head amanda!!* alright, i'm dying from lack of oxygen (block nose) and my throat hurts like dont know whose business. time to meet zzzZzz monster.
look forward to my joy and smile and happiness generator on friday. you know who you are. =)