well, its my church anni today. din want to have cell, but the little ones want it. so i thought why not. but the turnout wasnt exactly good. haha. although i say no one is to tell me crappy reasons. but i'm quite happy with the group today. responsive. they're always responsive when i dont do word. i wonder why. haha.
let's see, amanda chua, yiying, grace, candice, eunice, karmen and qing of course, yours truly. BUT it seems only our table which consists of amanda chua, yiying, grace and myself which is more noisy. and the other table, which consists of candice, eunice, karmen and qing is pretty quiet. haha. well, actually my table is noisier because there's me. haha. i feel happy that we had fun. its quite sad though that some are still very reserved. anyhow, i think i was a little wild today. haha. i'm happy. i dont know why. oh ya, i forgot, God=JOY. how cool. (:
service was cool. i had fun. so much fun. actually, like i say, i'm growing to like potatoes alot. really. though some are quiet and reserved, but i can see their heart for God. which, really encourages me sometimes. qing and myself, arent exactly strong in many ways. we have our down too. but every sunday, seeing potatoes and MSG, it really encourages me.(although i blog to complain sometimes) haha.
i'm looking forward for more fun sundays. its always fun with God in our midst. my life probably wouldnt be some eventful without this LOVE and JOY from HIM. cool.(: oh did i mention, i kindda like corrinne may. her voice is cool. and she writes cool song, that hits the billboard charts and some songs with spiritual stuff in it. just like my blog song. hahaha. well, not really. but she's cool. check her out.
oh, about yesterday, (let's not talk about the sad part) my parents cell had this love fest thing. so i join in larx. auntie yeok meng was praying for me, then i had to pray for my mummy. like ohmygoodness. i never done that, especially infront of adults. and i was like "mummy, must i.." then my mum go"just say a simple prayer" so i was like, kindda reluctant. but OH WELLS. i said the prayer with lots of agreement. i din felt good, but i let the spirit led me larx. today, my dad was like telling me, "you know, auntie yeok meng and the others were impressed by your prayer for mummy yesterday. you give them hope for the youths today and that we all see the rising of the next generation." i was like blur larx. but, all glory to God. he place us here for a reason.
you know, i thin my parents are pretty cool. as they grow older, we talk more. i normally dont talk much larx. like nothing to talk, then always talk nonsense, its dumb larx. though sometimes i have my dumb times. but, ya. i feel cool talking to my parents about church. its like common ground, common thinking. then we will discuss church stuffs together. like i share with my dad sometimes when he sends me to sch on mondays what i learn, how is my spiritual walk. sometimes, if i'm home early, while keeping my mum company downstair, i will like tell her i feel stress, then very dry in spirit or something like that, then my mum will have like understand, and console me in ways larx. but i know she will pray for me. my mum is not very vocal when it comes to prayer at times. the cool things i experience with my parents regarding this. its cool. and my parents are understanding where i come from and stuff. haha. but its like, certain things they will never agree with me. like i say, i did the spiritual gifts quiz thingy and my highest point was for celibacy. my dad was like super unhappy, and trying hard to convince me its not true. like its like that because you did the quiz yourself. then i thought, ya lor, i do that's why is true what. because i'm who i am. haha. then we were talking earlier on about this family, the daughter wants to take medicine and go to the mission field which i think its totally cool. and my dad actually told the parents that she's doing a good thing. God is working through her. but you know what, although i very much have been thinking of mission work and very much into it, my parents will definitely object. haha. all the weird weird things. so contradicting. its weird larx. but, as parents, you want the best for them. maybe i should talk to them more and convince them my way of life is cool. haha. living for God. (: if only that is so easy with my sis. my sis is quite individualistic. she dont think on edifying others. as long as she feels its right, its right. so stubborn in some sense. my mum and myself can never get her involved in church activities. when i was younger, i never join the church camps. you know like jiejie never go you dont go. then i was very very moved to go for the chiangmai mission trip in 2002. so i went. and i felt God so much even during my sick period. haha. its cool larx. and i grown so much deeper in love with him, that i want to you know, like learn and seek him more. He's cool you know. haha. then i went for that year church camp, by persuading my sis to go. and she went. cool right. haha. but after that, she never did attend another. my sis thinks that youths being super enthu totally turns a non-christian off. which to a certain extend yes. but you got to have that JOY in you ya. my mum ask me to talk to my sis. then i was like HOW?! we dont talk often. well, the longest talk i had with her, was in switzerland, the last night in switzerland. we stayed up just talking. you know, random talks. about our parents, about life, about God, about church. and my sis is cool. but there's something preventing her, obstructing her from going full gear.
i talk and rant so much about my family. haha. but really, i love them through all the ups and downs, blessing, happiness, unhappiness, displeasure etc. but, they havent really got to know my style of my life have they? haha. God the father is in-charge-of our identity, our destiny. i'm out on a journey in search of it. to fulfil my task. what a wonderful God i serve!!
Psalm 34:8 O taste and see that the Lord is good. Blessed is the man who takes refuge in him.