alright. first of all, i'm proud to say at 2303 amanda heng completed her case analysis. it's probably the happiest moment of her life this week.
you know, in the midst of all these busy-ness, i can't believe i actually went to take notice of things that is simply funny. haha. everyone's nick on msn is about the same thing(more or less). look at what our wonderful education system did to the minds of the young ones. haha. funny as it might seem, its pretty stressful. i mean, some parts of the case is related to something that was not taught, and i basically have to do my own research. like how fun. that thick textbook at home is of no use. waste of my money and time. but oh wells, its done!! yeah. but then again, there's still alot of work left undone. sigh.
i have i guess, more or less "talk things out" with God already. but, there's still this great sense of uncertainty coming ahead. its no joke to complete 2 big project in 2 weeks time. one of which is a combined project and the other without any info on what is really going on. shoot me please. i think my parents dont seem to dare talk to me these few days. its as if when they say something wrong i probably go all crazy and stuff like that. haha. my parents tend to leave me alone when i'm stressed up (exams preparation period and rushing project period). but i do realise that when i'm in this situation any small things can just spark up that displeasure within me. something i should change huh?
nothing is making me look forward to the 2 weeks. i dont even know whether i can go for any trainings. it's totally madness that i'm having competition next month. arRgGg. so messed up. sigh. i totally agree with uncle blue. when we never really spend time with God our life seem to be quite messy. sighs. i definitely do not enjoy what i'm going through now. like who does. sighs.
teach me how to rely on you once again. i'm tired. i'm lost. i need you don't i? give me rest. give me peace. let me feel like how i felt then. let it stay, not fluctuate.
i think i should sleep. i'm getting stone. many other chances this week to not sleep. haha.
can you hear me calling out to you...... i want to hold your hand again.. the hand you offered me.. never letting go.... can you hear me calling out your name..