its the start of my 2 weeks break. well not really, since i have a test on thurs that breaks the holiday mood. but its only an hour. haha. i'm talking as if i'm not gonna study. well, i will. i HAVE TO DO WELL. if i dont do well, i can just hit my head on the wall i see infront of me. because its ACCOUNTS. many reasons not for me to do well. cannot disappoint ms heng, cannot disappoint corrin, cannot disappoint myself and of course, cannot disappoint God. hee. i will do some prac on tues and wed.
let's see. my week is pretty much packed up with things to do. not much rest to get. mon celebrate youth day. haha. tues group meeting. wed graduation ceremony rehersal or something like that. thurs test. fri i'm free. hahaha. i guess, i'm not going bangkok afterall. my parents dont seem to have much spare cash for me. my sis is starting uni. shouldnt be selfish. sorry boon.
anyway, yesterday was really tiring for me. i dont know why. had lec in the morning with 20 other sch mates. haha. 2hrs break before accounts tutorial which i feel as though i dont gain much. had a super short meeting to allocate the job, which i'm still waiting for kylie to send me what i'm suppose to do. the only thing i remember is doing up the survey and i'm incharge of marketing with kylie and xueyun. oh joy. where's my boon. haha.
went down to bugis to meet zhon and the rest. well, zhon was the earliest followed by me, then cherie, then edlyn and fel. well, she came after zhon and edlyn left. haha. was funny walking around kindda aimlessly. we din know what to buy as well. anyway, when zhon and ed left, and fel came, we were more organised. haha. we had so much fun. i feel happy seeing them larx. although i'm dead tired. that i could just hit the sack anytime.
i think i should start spending more time with my dad and mum and sis. because when sch reopen, i know i'm gonna be super busy again, and prob not see them during the weekdays and sat. so before all these nonsense come in again, i think i need to be a good girl. i love my parents and sis. haha.
anyhow, suddenly struck me. i havent train for quite awhile. *guilty* gonna get gladys to go training at ppcc next week and following week. the competition is coming up. haha. how come i dont even feel the stress? maybe because i dont know the exact date. haha.
hmmm, had a good night sleep yesterday. but on and off, my mind will be switched on to thinking of my SIP. where do i go from here. so many decisions to make. i have so many things i want to do. i know clearly deep in my heart, i want to do something extraordinary. not to prove myself or anything, but because i felt Him telling me so. to get out of my comfort zone. comfort zone is dangerous man. i very much wants to get OSIP. is it me, or is it His plan? OSIP means so much to me. be it positive or negative. i probably can name both the same. OSIP means a new experience for me, learning independence, test my faith. OSIP means leaving singapore for 6mths, leaving my family, leaving wohwoh, leaving MSG. so many things i will miss. but i know, OSIP gets me out of my comfort zone. something in me, tugging me, prompting me to go. i cant not think about it. because i know, 1year from now, a decision has to be made. its not long.
oh well, should get myself prepared for leaders meeting later. so ciao. =)