this 2 days of sch practically drain me out although i din do much. and of course, i'm sad to get a D for my marketing case. But who can i blame but myself. My attitude and everything. This sem hasnt been a smooth sailing one has it? the getting use to everything, the travelling, the tougher subjects. Everyone just gets totally drain when reached home. i'm no different. ever since sentosa started for me, my health is like =/. and i'm seriously too slack to be true. although i do seem to be like doing work, but up there, it's pretty empty. the only thing i've been doing well is accounts. like DUH. i took accounts before!!! all these will change. trust me. the blow of getting bad result is getting into me. this CANNOT repeat. and seriously, if my second case gets a D i probably faint. i put in alot of effort as compared to the first case, and i'm more alert.
alright, so that's some thoughts about sch term so far. had project execution yesterday for culi and i did dessert along with my team yvonne(QC), celine, sam and lingzi. zee was on "mc" haha. sam and lingzi basically did the main job, that is to get the crepes out while celine, QC and myself were doing the garnish, which comprises of really just the orange zest. haha. you see, we dont have the "machine" that help us to get orange zest, so we had to manually do it ourselves. getting that thin slice of orange and later slice it so finely into strips isn't an easy task. the 3 of us almost got crossed eyes. haha. and the few of us got burnt here and there also. i got a sourvenior though, a plaster on my index finger. haha. shant explain much. oh well, our presentation was good thanks to them giving comments and my skillful hand. hahaha. sorry, a little too proud of it. (humble manda, humble)
today was diasterous too. had applied research test which i dont know anything. i do pray for a pass and higher (-duh-) and bese was fun today. i love SIA. haha. i support SIA alot if you must know. if i have a choice of airline to take, SIA will be first on the list and nothing else. yup. bese was discussing about service quality of SIA. very interesting and we had some chat session on passion in the industry. i would say, my most enjoyable bese class. =) went to the national lib after class to do research (was suppose to be a shopping trip, thanks to me my group end up in the lib) the lib is super duper big. and security is super tight, the 11th floor, we cant enter with our bags. but the materials there are really extensive and the environment is super nice. yup. had dinner with my group excluding xueyun and we were the main attraction of the patrons in mac at bras basar. haha. i mean, 5 people wearing formal eating at macs. hahaha. but we're use to such attention already. so well, we had fun chatting as usual. lots of random stuffs and facts.
after eating, we walk to raffles city to get home, and we saw this blind man standing on the road, so with xiu initiating, we went forward to try to help. and i tell you first time in my entire life have i tried to hitch a ride. the blind man wants to get to scotts road by hitching a ride, so we help larx. anyway, the place he was standing was rather dangerous. and ya, the cars stopped (because it was red light) none agree to fetch him, because wasnt on the way. so we suggested to come out money for him to get a cab. his attitude towards us was very bad. he din seem appreciative at all and just scold us and stuff. which really turns xiu off. we saw the trishaw riders(2 of them actually) and ask them to fetch the uncle, then they say he's always like that and that they got scolded several times already and that someone will fetch him one. so they ask us to go home. when we cross over to raffles, and look back, he's gone, probably someone fetch him. but it's quite annoying that you're trying to help someone and they give you super bad attitude. the least you could do was to say it's ok i can handle. sigh. makes my blood boil. actually no, i wasnt that angry, just feeling like alright, since you dont want i cant do anything. but i was feeling sad larx. like why dont you accept geunine help.
we went our separate ways after that and i was thinking on the train larx. the blind man, is like us, helpless, but yet we hold on so strong to our pride and ego and not acknowledging that there's an easier way out. and the group of us who offered to help is like God. he offer to help us, but we just reject him, and he cant do anything. he wants to help so much, but you dont accept. a little angry, but generally sad. sigh.
actually seriously, just now on my way to the lib, i was feeling so heavy and blank up in my mind that i nearly collaspe. its like, you feel so empty so blank. and yes, nothing seems to be moving on fine is it? am i opening myself to receive help from him? i don't know. i'm quite loss. really.