ok. i'm super fed up with my hand that i gave up. i just took out the bandage and do whatever i want. its like, i get injured so many times that i give up on myself too. i was practically handicapped for 3whole days. right hand was like useless larx. now, i'm typing with 2 hands. and i'm happy with the occasional pain here and there.
yesterday's sermon was really life skills. anger management. haha. i hardly get angry. in fact i think the last time i got angry and show it was in sec sch. haha. lots of things make sense. being angry is actually hurting yourself. and i wonder why do we do it to ourselves. haha. not that being angry is not good. its alright to show, but be slow to anger ya. cherie was nice yesterday. haha. she was helping me flip the bible. (because i was handicapped yesterday) but she should. make me rush down to church then in the end, she's at paul's place watching scooby doo. haha. oh wells.
today was in church super early. my dad fetch me to church before going work. he insist in doing that because my hand was bandaged. seriously, i see no link. but i know, they were just being concern. had cell. i think its fun. but find myself sometimes lost in their quietness. they can get really noisy, but its really once in a blue moon kind of thing. then had MSG cell. we did something to worship God instead. i was struggling to draw and write larx. i wanted to write a poem, but i got really blank. haha. i cannot be asked to do something creative one. i will just blank out. but i was innovative. i used my left hand. muahaha. i like to talk about God's love. haha. i feel, in this world, it's really God's love that is keeping me on the ball, on track. without His love, i probably be some ah lian by the road or something like that. not cherishing life, not cherishing whoever is by my side. (i'm not descriminating ah lians or whoever. just stating examples and the extremes)
often find myself being quiet. thinking of so many things. i like the way things are now. i wont exactly say i'm having a very smooth sailing life. but, i'm just thankful. for a life like this. i'm seriously truly blessed. having friends, having a normal life, no sickness, no lost parent, have a sibling, have so many things i want. who am i to say, i'm not blessed. haha. giving thanks is so fun.
oh. i was sleeping on the sofa earlier on while my mum was watching tv. my mum shifted my position so i wont lie on my hand.(i sleep on my sides) so sweet right. that's why i love my mummy. hahaha.
i know its silly. but i was really that close to falling. you pick me up, you make me smile. i enjoy every silent walks we have,and i thank God for you. =) you're the bestest friend i could ever have. do you know?