i'm in a blogging mood, probably because i'm in a good mood. yea. i got to tell you something, God rocks!!!! he so rock my world. i just pray and wish that i'll never grow weary of the world again like how i was the past few months. haha. i was really uptight and my temper couldnt really be controlled. and really, i think all my friends had to take my nonsense for like very long period of time, my apologies. really. i didn't mean to hurt you all (that is if i did) because you all mean the world to me, because you all are the world. without all of you, the world can never be complete. you know, just felt something telling me, each and everyone of us is a piece of jigsaw puzzle. if anyone of us leave this world when our "due time" isnt here yet, the world would be incomplete. so we're really responsible for our own life.
i guess its been really tough for my parents especially to be handling their daughter here, staying up late, staying out just to complete my projects and get unreasonable and stuff. (hey, i do get my fair share of being unreasonable. haha) i wanted to run away from the world larx, in another words. and i left him out. why? i wonder. it wasnt easy for me. i had so many struggles within me. i think everyone faces the same kind of struggles but handle it differently. yeah. i'm learning. and i'm just so glad no one gave up on me. just like how i wont give up on any of you.
so much of me saying if i know i dont mean a thing to you i wouldnt mind, but i just want to say, you all really mean the world to me. and its really until today, during the cluster outing, when i saw every single person face, the innocent, the purity in them. even the naughtiest person, you can still find this certain purity in them. well, so for that person too. i guess sometimes, we do weird things to get the attention, probably feel unloved. so yea, we need prayers. that's what prayer is all about, that's what life is sometimes about. it's about His people. lots of broken walls, a calling is it? shall wait and see. yea, i really do love MSG, potatoes. oh man. the unity. though sometimes i do feel MSG is a little big to feel cosy at times. but majority is going on fine yeah.
God place different people in my life to train me in certain ways, the weirdest way sometimes, i need to see His heart, i need to understand what he means and wants. not gonna live life of my own thinking. that's wrong wrong wrong. because it's all human perspective. wanna see things at His view. not mine. time for some change in my life. give me time Lord. i'll change. thank you Lord for your grace, mercy, love and patience in me. i will learn to be like you. really. =)