i realised something. everytime i'm having exams or tests week, i'll be blogging everyday. seems like blogging helps to relieve my stress, or is it i'm just trying to occupy myself with something rather then studying? right..
ok. i'm done with marketing. not very confident but yea, i finished studying. i'm gonna study again later after i finish applied research that is. i think its late night studying again? *shrugs*
i dont want to take supplementary paper.
i dont want to have C grades.
i want more time.
ahhh. procrastinating aint good but i always find myself procrastinating. ahh. why?!
seriously, i hate singapore's education system. it does not allow kids to have proper childhood larx. singapore is a developing country and can only stay as a developing country. why oh why is the goverment like neglecting the poor people in the community and only give focus to the richer ones. cant you see, the rich are getting richer while the poor are getting poorer. stop increasing the standard of living, or else the poor really cant survive. go and give the poor people a helping hand. the world is so focused on fighting for the highest position. what is the point? i seriously so much prefer the education system in australia or even america. at least students really get to be students and not robots.
ok. the above paragraph is like very random.
i cant believe i manage to get myself to school to return my bow and arrows. to and fro sch by bus. applause please. because the past few days was either bus to sch and taxi home or taxi to sch and bus home. i sure do think that taxi drivers love me. i give them business you know. not that i'm rich, i'm just lazy. yes, i admit, i'm lazy.
having lots of random thoughts this morning as i was studying. i suddenly recalled of my sec. sch days, and i thought of yinghui. hmmm, not exactly close to him, but i just miss him from the surface on this earth. i bet his closer friends like sam desmond they all miss him even more, and of course jielin and family. and guess what, i thought of paul few weeks back. like in primary sch how naughty he got, sec. sch still being so crazy and suddenly i get news from the papers that he's gone. you know, i really dont think its a joke larx. like why oh why do i have to face all these when i was younger. but i guess, God had his lesson on me. of course the missing part can never be recovered and both that i lost werent my very close friends, but they impacted my life. funny how i manage to live through those "dark" days of my life then. but God brought me through it nonetheless. i think i should pay yinghui a visit soon. ask sammy to bring me. =)
that's just another sad story that i have. haha. staying cheerful and bubbly and all aint easy in this world, but with God who gives me the strength who is the main source of joy, i know i can be happy and cheerful and leading a carefree life. its tough, but definitely easier then what i can do by myself. emotions are just a tool which spice up your life. its always about a choice in life huh. like sometimes things seem really getting out of hand, as if there's no way out, but there really is another way out huh. i guess what must GO and what must be CHANGED is firstly, our own mentality.
well, life and its lesson, a never ending journey still we meet God. continue to learn with me because i'm still learning.