whee~! its a nice day right. we should all feel kiddy, because it's CHILDREN'S day!! woopee! haha. i had a great day out yesterday with sammy, corrin, edwin and yong tat. lots of funny stuffs larx as usual. but, no matter what we do and stuff, i'll enjoy because the company is good isn't it? (: ________________________
you know, i've been like "bed-ridden" for the week, as in like when i'm home, i'll definitely be lying on the bed. haha. well, thanks to my back. the pain killers dont seem to be working, and no, i dont want to rely on pain killers too much. If it still hurts on sunday, i probably see the doctor again for more advice and stuff. ________________________
so.. i've been pretty much doing nothing throughout the week. but, my brain hasnt stopped functioning have they? haha. oh well, its pretty weird. you know like when you're studying, you can actually think of 101 stuffs to do, but when you arent studying, you feel like there's nothing to do. haha. Humans love to contradict themselves dont they? haha.
was wondering, like this world, are we born to behave in certain manner, all we are getting ourselves comfortable in the worldly system? why is there a culture going on, like chinese culture yada yada. and Values, is it really based on our belief or based on the world once again? seems as if the world is very influential huh.
people's thinking tend to be along the line of the world's thinking, which is sometimes pretty scary, because if you do have a mind of your own, it seems as if the whole world is against you and you freak out. But, we have God dont we? Yes, we have God and so we're more then conquerors, meaning, we've conquered the world, so what's there left for us to fear? perhaps, we all need assurance. where do we get our assurance from, people around us, God, what else? actually, God is the most important source of assurance we can get, but often, we place our trust in people too much for their assurance, that once something goes wrong, you feel as if its the end of the world. can TRUST be used on people ever again? is TRUSTING that difficult, or did we humans complicate it?
i guess, its no point saying, does it matter what people view about you when God is more important. i know i always say that, but nah, i cant even get myself to believe in that sometimes. we humans, we NEED assurance from God, from PEOPLE. people, like you and me. but how do we go about doing it? frankly speaking, i have no idea too. because if you do shower all your love upon this particular person, the person take you for granted and when they fall, whatever you say will still not make sense huh. scary world we're living. nothing we do will be right. then we'll say, keep your eyes fixed on the cross, fixed on Jesus. easier said then done right. i guess, everything at the end of the day, boils down to this- PRAYER.
when the world is against you- PRAY when you feel lost in this world- PRAY when you cant find the strength to move on- PRAY when you're confused- PRAY when you have no one to confide your problems to- PRAY when you're sad- PRAY when you're happy- PRAY . .. ... .... ..... ...... ....... the list just goes on. yes, you got the word i'm trying to say, PRAY! prayer does wonders, prayer does miracles, prayer is EVERYTHING!!.
loving someone is never easy, because you can be requitted and you might end up being dumped one side. But never lose heart, because God did not give up on us either. the love he gave is unconditional. Set your eyes on God, linger in his presence, decrease yourself and increase Jesus in you. guess by this way, you'll really understand and know how to love unconditonally.
no matter what, you'll always have God and definitely i'll pray for you and stand by you. so, smile, for this is what God wants to see from you and what i really wanna see from you too!! ________________________
ok, now this is for corrin
babe!!!! we've known each other for 6years already. from the time you lend me your tie for the phototaking session till now. woosh! long time!! we have our ups and downs. and yea, we did drift apart from each other. Guess God was using you to impact my life in some way or another, because we got to know each other all over again when we were in sec3. Probably God gave us a new chapter to begin with. It's great to have you involved in my life story. From talking nonsense, to consoling each other, to sharing His love with each other, the works He has done in our lives. we have our happy times and sad times, and i'm glad we went through it all together and we're still holding on! yea, sometimes we cant seem to understand why we behave in some ways, but we still went through it all din we? you probably know me more then i know myself at times. and i just wanna Thank you for standing by my side when i'm down and stuff. its great larx. now that you've turned 18, a new chapter of your life unfolds. I sincerely pray that you'll be always happy and that all things will flow smoothly for you. even if you face crisis in your life, i pray that you'll face it with a smile, knowing that there're people who loves you still, knowing that you have God in your life. more years of celebrating each other's birthday i guess. before i end this message to you, sorry you got to wait for a birthday present. haha. stay happy! God loves you, so does your family, nelson, huiyu, edwin sammy and myself!! have yourself a great birthday!! ________________________
now for Xian. eh, i dont know what to write, but you're a great BROTHER!!! woohoo. now that you're OLD, must be mature, stop bullying the girls in MSG. next time play cai quan, only we can whack you ar.. haha. stay salty brother!! and spread the salt to the world. haha. you yourself say you're important, so what are you doing here, go and salt-ify the world!!! woohoo!! ________________________
ok.. long entry again. i wonder if the birthday people actually manage to read till their part. haha. oh well, good day people! i'm excited to meet God with the congregation once again!!