i'm falling deeper and deeper as each day passes by. and i realise, it was once again, the fire in my heart, relighted. for you are the only one, who manage to bring out the warmth, from the heart that was once hardened. the glow that was once dim. can i say that its not true, when all is place right before me? how absurd would it be, if i were to say, no one on this earth existed. a joke perhaps you thought, but to me, it might be a mystery, awaiting for us to solve. so now, a journey unfolds, for me to seek and learn, of your ways. and maybe one day, i'll realise that its a dream, which occurred when i was taking a nap in heaven...... ______________________________
i dont know, i feel all very emo all of a sudden. like what's there on earth for me to look forward to? actually i think i need alot of attention. *shrugs* but perhaps because i understand the fact that everyone got their own life to live, and so i dont demand? nonono. i think everyone of us have the time whereby we need all the attention in the world, then some time we just wanna be all by ourselves, thinking back and looking back.
i was reading corrin's blog earlier on. her latest entry was quite intellectual. HAHA. not that i agree on everything that was written. but i must say, there's a very nice flow to whatever was said there.
aiya, i very not happy, yet not sad. i want to meet God. i have questions, i have doubts, but most importantly i want to hug him, kiss him and call him papa and tell him i love you with him standing in front of me.
faith, is not seeing yet believing? quite hard at time larx. today during cell we talked about it. faith comes along with many others like hope, joy, love, peace yada yada. and the devil will normally target the hope, love, joy, peace yada yada to get our faith down. faith takes courage sometimes. and i mean, when you're desperate, what other way out do you have? maybe that's when faith is at its highest point there in your life, because you got nothing to depend on anymore. i want to hate intellect because it draws me away from God. intellect makes me think too much between the lines. but without intellect, how am i gonna communicate with the world and defeat the devil? in our christian faith, is there the existence of the grey area? or is it purely black and white region which i have been believing for the longest time?
its amazing how you can have so many questions and yet, you know deep down they'll be answered one day. i dont mind waiting till the day i meet Him. because at least i know i'll meet Him at the end of my journey on this earth.