I'd rather have bad times with you then good times with someone else I'd rather be beside you in a storm then safe and warm by myself I'd rather have hard times together then to have it easy apart. I'd rather have the one who holds my heart... __________________________
i realise i sound as if i'm in love or along the line by looking at my blog titles as well as the first part of my entries. haha. oh well, yeah, i'm in love. i'm so deeply in love with someone who knows me inside out, left, right, center. haha. go guess who. haha.
anyway, i'm so not going for training tomorrow again. i mean, look at the time now, and training is 830 in the morning. ahhh. ok, i'm lazy i admit. but but but. haiya. dont know larx. so, i promise wednesday i'll make a come back. (: really. trust me ok. (: haha. __________________________
today, i had a "revelation". its really a great joy doing something for your love ones. i cant believe that i actually am willing to sacrifice more sleep time, by waking up early to clean up the house for my parents. ahaha. i din find it tiring sweeping, wiping and mopping. not at all. in fact, i thought it was easy job. i mean since i've been working odd jobs last time and mopping the floor never fails to be one of the task i have to do. so it was easy job and of course, a great pleasure to be doing so. and so funny, after the house is clean, when i saw some dirt flying i was like super annoyed. hahaha. so i guess, i better not dirty my house, or else i'm just getting myself into trouble. hahaha. __________________________
you know, sometimes hard work pays off and sometimes it don't. i guess we have to see where we want to get our returns from, the purpose of why we're doing that particular thing. i mean if you don't get all these facts RIGHT, you probably be doing the work given with a very wrong attitude. at the end of the day, i guess you're the one who will suffer. correct me if i'm wrong. i mean, when you're angry, when you're upset, you want to vent it out right. however what do you gain at the end of the day? frankly speaking, nothing. its just like how i remember when ranting on my blog was no longer an outlet for me to make me feel better then. that happens when you're doing something out of the unwillingness in your heart. sometimes, dont be quick to push the blame away from yourself, take time to reflect on your doings, your attitude. i guess it boils down to PATIENCE. that's one fruit of the spirit huh. well, this above paragraph its not for anyone in particular. just thought i could share my thoughts. (:
hmmm, i remember Joel telling me how he admire my determination to not flow with the current. i was pretty proud that hey, i have someone admring my determination. however, i guess, this determination cannot be from within myself, within amanda. God played most of the part, because firstly, he's the one who changed me. (: i guess, keeping your focus on Him is tough, because at times we get whack by some sort of tsunami and we sway. BUT if we walk close with him, keep our focus on him, we know we'll survive. (: __________________________
ok, talking to myself aint fun for now, since my mind is being occupied by certain stuffs. ahhh. so ta-ta for now. (: