as we go on we remember all the times we had together and as our life change come whatever we will still be friends forever... ___________________
i dont know why. but i'm suddenly reminded of my times in secondary school. it is still the best days of my life. really. especially my sec4 days. when i was sec4, the happiest thing happened, but the saddest stuff happened too. i had my fair share of smiles and tears. i had friends come and go. but, the memories, they're just so sweet.
i dont know why, but i was reading one of my junior's blog, and he said something like "..went in saying coral sucks, leaving saying i love coral.." that's what happened for me too. well, not to the extent of saying coral sucks. but i know, i left loving coral. coral made my life very much beautiful and eventful. made lots of friends that form this wonderful memories.
the biggest contributors to my wonderful memories- 4e3! 2yrs of fun and laughters, quarrels and misunderstanding yadayada. it was shared among the 27 of us, shared among the teachers who were there to guide us. i definitely remember vividly how ms chong manage to bring the whole class to pass emaths, when we were one of the worse class in the cohort. i also remember how mdm fazilah got stressed up by the 13 of us taking history and fell ill. i also remember how we studied ever so hard for our exams. the nights spent in school. i also remember how we made yahui wear the trad. costume and made ms heng happy by having the whole class in trad. costume. i remember how we celebrated her birthday for ms heng. i remember how we sleep during bio class. i remember how mr osman was being so bitchy with all of us. i remember the time where we were at our lowest, being quarantined during the O levels and how ms heng encouraged us to press on and go through it together as a class. i remember the performances we put up. i remember graduation day, where we sang for the last time the school song. i remember how we give the prefects problem during reading time. i remember how we ignore mrs ang's speech. i remember how we ignore mrs ang's presence and still leave our shirts tucked out. i remember how we all listen to dharni beatbox. i remember how we take our own sweet time to walk to the labs. i remember the times where we got punished for not doing our work. i remember how we go to different classes for chinese lesson. i remember how we get annoyed over what mr lee talk to us about chinese. i remember the time where only 2 people from 4e3 went to sch while the rest were at home. haha. are you all still thinking back and looking back after 2yrs?
i dont know why, but i very much want to go back to coral, to what coral was. maybe because i was too involved in secondary school that i'm tired now, and i just want to slow down my pace when i'm in poly. or maybe i gave my all to church already. i see my juniors changing so much after entering poly, and i see myself, i'm still the same. our youth is a very short span of time. am i wasting it? i really dont know. but i know i cant always be living in the past. i need to move on. like i say, these are nothing but memories. suddenly the tough times seem so much easier now. suddenly the tough times seem so much more fun. suddenly you realise people around you are not who they are anymore. maybe time did change the surroundings, and for people to adapt to the surroundings, they change too.
seriously, my life now isnt bad. but i just miss those times when politics werent that real to us. i just miss those times when you have real interaction with the teachers, where you can run to them whenever you are troubled knowing they care. and did i mention, i admire my teachers alot, because they care for us ALOT. and i do mean ALOT. they listen to our problems, they advice us. there's never one time when i needed advice they would say no to me. and you know what, i got all these, because God was making my life very easy then. not that its not easy now. i'm still very blessed to have nice people around me. i just cant help but miss those times, when i need not make so much decisions. when perhaps, life was very much simple.
simplicity, often seeked by many, but never achieved by many. what's your idea of simplicity? what's in the center of your life? so many questions for us to ask. i guess the answer is there waiting for us already. maybe we just never did knew of the easiest way out, thinking there cant be an easy way out. funny how human brain works right? and its so easy saying things that wasnt what you wanted to say. we feel one thing, and we claim it to be another. haha. can feelings really be controlled and made unknown? *shrugs*
dont you wish sometimes, your life is like fairy tales, when everything end with happily ever after. guess, it can only remain as a dream. because we can never know the ending to our story till the day we die right. our life, like a story book, updating everyday. and the ending is always left unknown.
i guess, i should stop living by the hours, minutes and seconds. i should start living by my goals, my missions, and living for God. "though i walk through the valley of the shadow of death, i fear no evil, for you are with me;your rod and your staff, it comfort me.."