when you love someone, you got to learn to let them go when i dream about you that's when everything's alright you're in my arms, here next to me, forever. when i dream about you girl you never go away, just close my eyes, wait for my dreams. cause i'm still love, loving you. _______________________
a sense of loneliness came crashing over. at that very moment in time, i lost it all. i thought i would never find an escape. and then i realise its all part of the D_ _ _L's plan, to get me down. no no no, i'm not falling for it. and so, i'm back on my feet now. (:
well, i took awhile before getting back on my feet. the feeling of loneliness was really weird, because i wasnt up to anything. i was just watching my shows and lying on my bed when suddenly the thought "where are my friends" came to me. i was like, yea, where are they? will they only appear when something happen to me?
its inevitable you get such thoughts once awhile. and i'm thankful for a Joel who can talk nonsense with me at that point of time. he asked me questions that set me thinking alot too. though some facts surfaced pretty harshly to me, however i know i have other things to hold me up. (: well, corrin came online at the right time too.
all in all, i did felt lonely. what can i say, being stuck at home this 2 days, facing the 4 walls, aint really fun. since i've been doing that for the past few weeks. haha. i guess i should get back to my archery training since my back is feeling much better already. and yea, something productive come my way!! _______________________
time and time again. looking through my past, bittersweetness and regrets tend to be the only feelings i have. i dont understand why do i think about the past, and suddenly, i'm reminded of what one of the character in a show said. "People always think back, because everything has Past. and all we can do, is think back." it was in chinese, so my translation might have some error here and there larx. haha. but so true right. i guess, its quite different from brooding larx. oh well. regrets, i have. but those memories are just memories if i have learnt nothing from it. some taught me to be strong, some served as no purpose. all in all, they're my life story. (:
is it too late for me to realise now who are the ones who are true to me? i dont know. i dont mind the silence we have or might have, but this is all i have to say-
i told my heart to love you like i should _______________________
alrighty. my brothers and sisters out there, give your best shot for your remaining papers. Be sure that God is there for you. He is FOR you and never against you. If ever you felt you did not do well, dont brood, lift it up to God yea. Get yourself all geared up for the next paper and continue to rely on His wisdom. (: