my previous entry make me sound like someone who's er.. love sick? haha. how was it thinking and thinking hard who made amanda heng fall in love? hahaha. its so fun pretending to be love sick because apparently the only interesting topic ever on this earth is love. tell me who's never interested to know a love story? the ups and the downs in the love story? no one is really interested in your singlehood right?
well, love definitely is something that catches the attention of everybody. really. unless you know this person well, then you probably be more interested in the happenings of this person's life larx. or else when you're just blog surfing, you read because you're what? yeah, busybody. hahaha. anyway, the previous entry was just for fun. i bet no one believe, so i cant be bothered to really explain myself. enough said.
i'm getting my timetable for next semester in like say 9hrs and 30mins time? i'm having a lot of emotions now larx. happy, sad, frustrated, lost, aiya, everything. maybe i'm suffering from pre-sch re-open blues or something like that? hey, did i just create a sickness? hahaha.
desperado/why dont you come to your senses/you've been out riding fences for so long now/oh you're a hard one/but i know that you've got your reasons/these things that are pleasing you will hurt you somehow/don't you draw the queen of diamonds boy/she'll beat you if she's able/the queen of hearts is always your best bet/well it seems to me some fine things/have been laid upon your table/but you only want the things that you can't get. desperado/you know you aint getting any younger/your pain and your hunger are driving you hime/and freedom oh freedom/well that's just some people talking/your prison is walking through this world alone/dont your feet get cold in the wintertime/sky wont snow and the sun wont shine/its hard to tell the night time from the day/you're losing all your highs and lows/aint it funny how the feeling goes away. desperado/why dont you come to your senses/come down from your fences/open the gate/it maybe raining/but there's a rainbow above you/you better let somebody love you/let somebody love you/before its too late.
sorry, suddenly this song came on and i got er, brought into it. nice song though. yeah. sigh. i can't believe i'm feeling blue larx. and its weird because i know i want to get out of the blueness, but i'm just so lazy to move out. its as if i wanna be stuck feeling blue. there's a lot of factor causing this blue i'm having. well, one is probably sch is starting. then another reason, never mind i dont say here. not that everyone need to know it anyway..
i'm actually looking forward to school, you know like learning something new, the exciting projects bla bla bla. but, the price to pay is so heavy larx. like having to go school like a zombie? haha. actually, that time when i was rushing project with boon and kaili for AR, getting demoralised together, still rushing for it, wanting to give up together, struggling hard to stay awake, printing proposal finally at 8 in the morning, cab down to sch to hand up, and attending tutorial after that.. i tell you, it was like madness. but well, need to find some fun in that madness eh?
ok larx, so i dont mind the rushing of projects. but that is provided if i'm doing with a group of people who are working hard together. i hate it when people just dont care about their grades and then affecting the others in the mean time. i hate it when every semester i go back to school only to receive surface kind of friendship. thinking you mean so much to each other but actually you dont. its as if we're going to sch everyday to act. ahhh. i hate it when people who care about their grades but think they're some genius that god give to us or something like that. i hate it when i have to go home late everyday. i hate it that my money have to be spent all on food and sentosa food is not cheap. ahhhhhhh. i'm being negative here. i'm sorry, but because this is the only thing i'm willing to reveal and rant out loud, so pardon me. i always find myself lost in the midst of rushing projects. i never once relied on His strength. maybe that's why i'm suffering. but with current condition. AHHHHHHHHHH. i dont want to type out. so.. nsfjbudibvuisbnvlkfjkbvckdbfvdskjnvbuifdb svkljfbd jhv dsijbvdsnvuisfdbvndsikbcjdsbvhyabkldcjsbvujh xcujvbdxjknvbujdsjkdx vjukcxb jkdbuivdsbnvujkbdxjkvb xjhdkvbjkxcbvjkxdznbvujkzbvjkbsj zuisvb iduosbcviodsbnfkldsn cjkszbdfjbzsjkcnbzjkbcjkzdbcjkzxbckujbdnjkfcbzxkj ujkbdsvkujdxbfkdznbkjcnsakbdjbflksbdzvlk dbxjk zsujzdbvjbdxjkvn fxjkbdzfbldzbvjkxzbdvjbdljkvbxjdklzbvjkzbvkjvzx klj jklbvkljzxbnciklzxbnjkbfvjkbvcjkzbvjkzbxklvbxzjkvbx
yes, i'm that frustrated. and i think i know the real reason behind it already. the thing that trigger is probably school, but the main reason is..... ahhhhhhh. ok. i'm gonna go pray. sigh.
i actually just want to be someone who gives you whatever you request for. but apparently, i'm not that capable. i'm sorry but i love you still.