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i was typing a whole load of chunks(do you consider my entries chunks?) yesterday, and when i clicked publish post*poof* everything was gone. and so i decided to boycott blogger yesterday. haha. its dumb to be boycotting it for only a night. but you know, the things running through my mind, i just want to pen some down. just in case all these thoughts get lost again.(:

before i get into whatever i wanted to talk about and get digress in the middle and stuffs like that (do pardon me. but you probably got used to it.) let me wish all you people out there a happy deepavali yeah. enjoy this special day with er.. your precious ones. ok, i dont know how is it link to that because since its not something i celebrate, but you know, its a public holiday so yea, spend it wisely.

[corrin, you better demand a double pay from your boss. haha. so i can get some treats. (:]

and so, what was it that i wanted to blog about? er... let's think.... oh yeah, something about time right? all the cliche terms people used about time. eg. time waits for no man.. ok is that all? haha. i cant remember larx. but its true, humans are capable of almost everything and anything, i mean, since we are given authority over everything right? but, we just havent found that "spell" or whatever not to turn back time. we are always dwelling on the past, on the memories. i heard one of the artist in the show said this before.."we're living on this earth everyday to create the memories we want to looked back in the future"ok, i'm not sure if i did remember it correctly, but somewhere along the line larx. but imagine if you were to think back and realised you did N O T H I N G haha. that's quite devastating isnt it?

i think humans got to learn to set a certain limit/boundaries to their emotions and stuffs like that. eg. if you're feeling sad, how long do you want to be in that situation of sobbing and self pity? no, i'm not saying you cannot feel this way bla bla bla. admit it, we humans are just slaves to our emotions. when something bad happened, we just start on self pity, thinking how cruel and unfair the world is to us. we basically shut off any other things happening around us. (maybe a terrorist attack on our own homeground might wake us up?) but yeah, if we dont set a limit to how long can we allow ourselves to be sad and stuff, we can never ever get things done. you can fall, but you must learn to get up. perhaps that is what i want to say? *shrugs*

next, i think humans need to know how to get out of our own comfort zone, in order to do erm.. BIG things. well, not like save the world and stuffs, but you know, fulfilling the main purpose in our lives? i dont know. but how long can we remain in our comfort zone, where everything is planned and prepared for us by our parents? admit it, we're too pampered. remember the times when you asked for something from your parents and they dont give? you did throw a little tantrum din you? alright, let's not point fingers, we did at one part of our life behave in that manner. anyhow, its time for us to give since we have been receiving so much. freely give, freely receive i remember hearing this during one of the camp. God wants to freely give us while we freely received. we shouldnt be selfish by allowing only ourselves receiving the wonderful blessings right, we should share it with the people around us. remember, this life, its never about us.

Jesus loves you. do you love Him then..?

[are you gonna talk about John3:16 again? whereby God so love the world that he gave his one and only begotten Son that whoever believes in Him shall not die but have eternal life? gosh, give me a break will you?]

i wish i could give you a break my friend. but i'm talking about facts here with you. He did send His son down. you know him too, you heard of him before, yeah, you did. His name is Jesus remember? the mary's born child Jesus Christ you sang that in your christmas carol's, dont you remember? alright, i shall not push you any further. but yeah, the only reason I love you, is because, (gesture up) yep, because Jesus love me.

maybe you can try doing this one day. yeah, i'm telling you about prayer. you know, whatever that i was saying above, about we humans need to set limits/boundaries for our emotions, that we need to start giving since we have received so much, its pretty much impossible for us to do that. because we lack self-disipline. and of course many others. but it doesnt take much to pray, its like having a chat with your friend. when faced with a difficult situation, and you dont know what to do, pray. the situation maybe humanly impossible to solve, but nothing is impossible for our BIG God. try praying one day, and believe deep down in your heart, you will know your prayer will be answered. God only wants to best for you. really.

seriously, i dont know what i type here make sense to you or not. but it does make a lot of sense to me at least. haha. in fact, what is the real motive behind me blogging? i have no idea. perhaps i enjoy the attention i have from people through the cyber world. *shrugs* but anyhow, anyone of you like/love rainbows here? *i see some hands*

i think this is taken at stonehenge in UK. well, that's not the main point. see the beautiful rainbow? nice eh... do you remember how fascinated you got upon seeing the rainbow? its such a beautiful sight isnt it. everytime after a storm, people look forward to seeing the rainbow, why? and why did God create the rainbow? [dont tell me scientific stuffs about the light penetrate this and that that's why you get rainbow.] the rainbow is actually a promise from God, regarding what?? i shall tell you another time.(: (oh cool, i'm keeping you all in suspense. haha)