i dont see the smiles anymore, i dont feel the joy anymore, i dont feel peace, i dont feel love...
nonono. all these are there all the time. right? is the overloading work blocking my view, my reach to all these intangibles?
i feel like a lost sheep, in an open field, in search of my shepherd high and low. when in actual fact, my shepherd is right in front of me. but because i'm so anxious in looking for him, i did not stand on the same spot.
sigh. i feel horrible larx.
you know, when i'm feeling this way, HE is actually feeling worse off. and my parents, they aint feeling any better. all these because of me.
you tell me not to be so uptight. but yet, i cant be slack. you ask me to strike a balance between the stress and everything else. but, is it that simple?
yes yes, i know, i shouldnt be fretting so much. but, the more i dont think about it, the worse the whole situation gets. so tell me, what now?
there's a whole lot of issues leading to such emotions? HAH. i probably cant spell it out myself. perhaps i need some time off to think to reflect and all.
but in the mean time, keep the spirit of christmas going, because you never know who you can touch.