today is my last day at the luge for my deployment, and i do feel sad. i would say its one of the time i'm working and enjoying it a lot. time really flies when i'm there. and the people there rocks larx. period. (:
this then brought me to think about friendship. like how much we foster through the things we do together, and once we stop, the friendship stop too. is it anyone's fault that it came to an end? i've been having too much of such friendships already, that i'm starting to doubt my capability as a friend. well, not a person, but simply- friend.
how have i been a friend to you? i'm probably one of the most slack friend you ever have. i never ever take the initiative to make the first move. this probably explains a lot, like how much i value you right? but seriously, how do you gauge whether a friend is a perfect friend a good friend or a lousy friend? apparently with my way of handling friendships, it has led to me losing a few friends. so is the problem on me or what now?
actually seriously, i think from a conversation you have with someone, you can already gauge the relationship you have over there. like how deep is a friendship. really.
but sometimes its really hard to gauge also. *hey i'm contradicting myself* its like, if you keep on joking around and talking nonsense, people will think that this friendship they have with you is really surface. and it becomes hard for people to go near to you to share their problems with you. then, if you're too serious, people find it hard to be relax around you. then you say, must know where to draw the line. if its so easy, everyone on this surface of the world would have been the perfect friend already. hah.