like any other sunday, i wake up, go to church, and have cell. but there's some extra thing that i'm feeling while having little cell today. its something like- hey i want to know them more. yeah. we spent cell today, worshiping him and talking about anything under the sun. no, i dont want to appear to them as some slack cell leader or those cant be bothered kind. i admit i did not prepare for word today. but, yeah, really there's this want to know them more, to let them know me more and to bond with them feeling. no, its not just a sunday meeting, hi and bye, we know more about Him kind of day. so yeah, we spent the whole time talking and laughing and planning for the future. (: i guess, we need to meet up more beside the normal cell meeting.
anyhow, for big cell, worship was good. even though it was only the 5 of us. paul,joshie,reagen,xian and myself. but all was well. We shared a lot today. in fact, paul is one good brother in christ. because he always set me thinking about the life that we're having, is it just like that, or is there more to it. more effort to be put in to have a more wonderful cell i guess. i wouldnt say in a moment of one sharing session it got us a lot more closer. no no no. but i was glad that i shared my thoughts, i got them to listen, they share a little of theirs, and of course, our heart to want to see a more bonded cell. reagan reminded us that a cell isnt just about its cell meeting where we gather to listen and ponder over his word. a cell involves life as well. it involves the fellowship that we all need that we all LACK. i wouldnt say i'm sad because at current point, i'm more then contented about how life is for me. yes i might have fallen short, yes i'm not perfect. But God has always been kind to me showing me his faithfulness to me, his love for me... through these people. of course, i want more of it.
you know, today's sharing session has also gotten me into looking deeper into every relationship we have. it shouldnt be just on face value right? it should go deeper. because we're a family. i dont believe that my cell mates and cell members are outsiders just because we dont belong under the same family name. because, we're all saved and cleansed by His blood. there's no excuses right? i thank God for the already strong bond that we share, because that's really what kept me going for so long. the path is long and winding, with lots of hurdles, lots of distractions, lots of hurt and loneliness. BUT because of His faithfulness and great love, i will press on. (:
i dare say, there's nothing more in life that i want then to have a perfect relationship with Him and my brothers and sisters in christ. i want to know you again, in a new and refreshing way. potatoes!
MSG!!
let's start anew. it's gonna be a different and refreshing experience. (: but before anything can happen, i think i should get back to my books and STUDY!!. exams are not getting me down, because HE lives in me. (:
i am a flower quickly fading, here today and gone tomorrow A wave tossed in the ocean, vapor in the wind Still you hear me when i'm calling Lord, you catch me when i'm falling And you've told me who i am, I AM YOURS.
