i've done it again. ): i hate it when i always turn back to the usual ways. ahhh. i could just get a knife and stab myself to death. really. i hate myself when i made such stupid decision. ahhh. dumb dumb dumb. ):
anyhow, dont think any of you know what it is. but never mind larx. doesnt matter. woosh. 1st March, judgement day for all my smarty friends who chose JC life. but i refuse to make any move to ask that crucial question- How did you fare. AHH. call me dumb or something. but apparently if they want to tell me they will RIGHT and and, i dont know, but i feel they need their personal time to think through it and stuff. i bet hundreds of people are bombarding their hp asking how they did. so which kind of friend should i be now. haha. apparently you can see i'm quite a sucker when it comes to being a friend. so... ok my dear darlings.. you all see this then you all know why i din ask larx. i want to show my concern but i still believe you need your own personal time. hahaha.
its the third day of my official holidays already. and every morning the same motion happens. that is... at 0900hrs, i'll turn.. grab my another pillow, cover my ear, bury my whole self with my 2 pillows and 2 bolsters under my big big blanket..hoping that i dont hear the drills. AHHHH. then because i'm being like FORCED to wake up, so i'm not happy, so i force myself to sleep. then today, got nightmare. wah.. i nearly died. its so scary. i dreamt i got back my semester's results and i saw all Cs.. i almost felt like dying. then i finally woke up. haha. i told my mum about the dream.. guess what.. she LAUGHED. ahhhhhh.. always bully me. humph. ok. this is an extremely senseless paragraph.
alrighty. i NEED to get myself out tomorrow. or rather later. need to buy my swimwear for my hydro on friday. so WHO'S FREE?! hahahaha.
and i'm sorry i've done it again. but i know you've forgiven me. so what can i say, but you always give me more then what i deserve..