Letting Go is never easy...
if loving you is watching you from a distance, i'll never go near you
if loving you is holding you near, i'll never let you go
if loving you is giving in to you, i'll never fight for my rights
if loving you is whispering sweet nothings, i'll never stop saying those to you
if loving you is protecting you, i'll never allow bullies near you
if loving you is saying those 3 words, i'll never stop saying them
but if loving you is letting you go
then i'll gladly do so...
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gosh. i think i'm so romantic. or so i THINK. haha. i dont know, but just thought about the above, so i typed it out. its almost 7days since she left. i cant help still feeling the ache. i know it will come to past, but there's so many things going round now that are just pure salt to the wounds. death is so scary when its happening to the people around you instead of yourself. because death to you, is you just die. nothing left to say. but the ones alive are the ones who suffer all those pain of letting go and mourning. if i can take my mind off things that involves you, it would be so much easier. but music is very part of my life already. =/
i still want to say thank you for everything you've done in my life. i know you would never want us, and even myself to be holding on to something that is gone already. and i know you hate seeing any of us sad and depress. i'm not depress, but i'm still learning to accept the fact that i lose you. because on that day, nothing seem real to me at all.
on a lighter note, today is Good Friday. (ok not much of a lighter note, for He died for our sins) reminder that its not just about the victory, but all the pain, fear torment anything that we're feeling he took upon himself. even though it seems like a routine every good friday we refer to the same few passages, but it just remind us differently. the power of the living word.
to someone. you've definitely melt my heart with your every action this whole week. i know its all because of what happened that's why the extra attention. but it says enough of who i am to you. (: at the same time, i'm sorry i cause you so much worry which really was uncalled for. but i thank you for every word of concern and love. and.. you're much more matured then i imagine you to be. continue to grow in His love, that's my prayer for you.
He blessed me at
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