school is starting!! ok, as usual, the mixed feelings. you get what i mean. but for me its something more larx. happy that i dont have to rot my life away anymore. haha. but then the thought of making new friends again just puts me off. if you havent realise it, i dont like to make the first move. and basically i'm quite a boring person. but never mind. let's not get into that kind of a topic. anyway, i have a classmate that is sticking to me for good, hahaha. 4sems straight of having her in my class. they say fate. oh well. haha. let's see if we'll continue being 4sems straight project mates. (: hope my classmates are nice. then my sem will be a smooth sailing one. (:(:
quite happy i'm back to tampines campus. because it means my travelling time is cut down by A LOT and that good food is on my way. you dont know how much i suffer in sentosa. because the food we're given was like terrible, i spent ALL my money on food and food alone. meaning, i patronise places like delifrance and sakae sushi alot when i'm there. ok, this shows how much i care about food. ok. food aside. back at tampines campus is also good, because i can meet more of my friends, that are like not from my course. haha. and i think chances of me meeting my lil'cousin is quite high since she's in cmm. ahahaha. though i dont like the people in that course, but my lil'cousin is there, got no choice but to try to like them. haha.
there're the downside too larx. but shant mention it. anyway, i'm quite i dont know what is the word. but like anxious or nervous or what not. its like, internship is drawing nearer and i still have no idea what i want to do. goodness. ok, i shall list here what i have in mind alright. first up, cruise. yeah. a moving hotel larx. so cool. second, airport. third, chef? *raise eyebrow* haha. forth, i dont know already. hahaha. ahhh. how how how. i think its really time to get down to some serious thinking and prayer. sigh.
anyhow, i was chatting to frankie earlier on in the evening. haha. talked a lot about secondary school, and got a little surprise also. haha. but never mind, its not important. and as we were chatting it just dawned upon me that i've changed. as in really. i used to enjoy organising chalets, bbq, gatherings and all. but now, i dont even want to attend one. and if i can escape it, i will gladly do so. weird! i think i'm really a very bo chap person? oh well. i think its high time i do some personal reflection and stuffs along that line. haha.
seriously, i think my hp bill is gonna shoot like nobody's business if i dont stop the massive sms-ing larx. it has got to stop. now i shall practise selective replying. hahahaha. but then again, its normally those few that msg me. and if there's someone else, its probably because of some reasons, which means i have to reply. ahhhh. OK. i have to think of an alternative. haha. ahhh. i know i know. because school's busy so i cant reply to a lot of people. HAHA. ahh. i'm talking nonsense. pardon me.
i think i'm very moody this 2weeks. i need to like really get out of it. i dont know how to like really feel happy from within already. i know i'm not losing Him. because He is always there. perhaps i'm just running away from Him or something. i dont know larx. i just feel something is missing. but i just cant put my finger at any major problem. hmmm. by the way, i only feel moody when i'm alone. haha. or sometimes i show it when i'm talking to this person. oh well.
ahhh. my little kiddo competition tomorrow.(sat) pray she do well. (: she's in chinese drama, meaning she has to speak in chinese. and i tell you she sound so pro lor. super fluent and the tone is nice. (: my kiddo lehz. haha. go go go!
another of my kiddo bomb me with a very bad news. she cant come for cell until like after june or something. i'm like so so sad. gonna miss her presence. but its because she got her guzheng prac for her performance. oh well, thank God she can still come for service. haha. i think my kiddos are talented. :p
one more kiddo aint feeling too good. glad she shared with me a little. at least i can keep her in my prayers. she's like the chimiology queen in my cell. ahh. i love my kiddo! (:
i'm quite excited talking about my kiddos. haha. love them so much. dont see they're kids, but they're quite mature in many ways, which simply amaze me. haha. they care in a way you find it so sweet. and seriously, they're capable of melting my heart a lot. thank God for giving me this group of kiddos. for me to guide them and also for me to learn from them. to me they're more then just my kiddos. haha. ooo. they rock. (:
ok. talking to that annoying person online now. and he's in chang zhou or something larx. hahaha. he drives me crazy larx. its like, pull your hair and all and feel like strangling him. hahaha. thank God he is coming back next sunday. kinda miss him. haha. funny how you will miss a person when he/she is away. but if you dont know he/she is away. not speaking to them for 1 or 2mths also never mind like that. haha. ok larx. not totally dont mind. but rather, you dont feel that its weird. haha. he's only away for 3weeks, and already missing him. but if he's in singapore, i probably wouldnt care. haha
so.. will you miss me if i leave? haha. sorry. its just a random question.
anyway, i'm really craving for steamboat!!! anybody wanna have seoul garden or coca?! PLEASE. haha. next week.. hmmm. ahh. i think friday can. HAHA. monday got sch. tues got sch+briefing. wed and thurs at expo(free labour!!!) and friday, if i can crash my destination lecture then friday no sch. woohoo. haha.
oh ya. sis's birthday and mother's day coming. time to go shopping already. haha. ok. i'm talking too much already.