its gone! so weird. the hopes were high one minute. the next, everything was crushed. disappointed? definitely. but i guess, there's enough ranting done by yours truly already. its the time of the day where you go,"now.. WHAT?" so much about keeping your hopes high. hah.
no doubt. when one door is closed, another door will open. but, i have to allow myself to walk to that open door. and how do i get that open door? i need to do something about it right? like go collect the key, or walk towards that door and open it. everyone is like going crazy staring at their phones, hoping that next call is a call of hope. but what is behind those hope? hah. i dont know. but at least we tried eh? the wait is seriously killing me. draining me out of all sorts of hope and dreams. if only you understand larx.
so do i hope, or so i just let things fall into place itself, which means i dont hope. i just see what will happen. but that's so sad right? *shrugs* ahhh. stop ranting amanda. pray manda. pray! but can i be sad till before i sleep? for today only? because, i really am sad. ):