its been a great 3 other days of slacking and not doing much work. but i do listen during class ok. been questioning myself, why did i even choose french. its like killing me. perhaps the reason lies behind me missing my first french lecture and tutorial. not my fault anyway. i was away at the FHA gaining valuable experience. (: but anyway, at least i wasnt feeling drowsy like during jap classes. but then again, i've learnt basic jap before, so yeah. french gonna be cool yeah? (:(:
went down to join them for bible study. not much of study actually. more on worship and praying. which is just as cool. i mean, all in all, you're having a connection with Him yeah? (: however, got to admit, been feeling really troubled because of certain stuffs. one obvious stuff would be SIP. gawd. i tell you, i'm feeling so stress. i dont even know what to do now. i mean, my resume is done up more or less. need to perfect the language, cause i did it the other time in a very slip shot manner. no good. but anyway, cover letters need to be up soon. and i need conquerer paper!! haha. guess i'm just waiting for replies for osip, and gonna send out for local companies as well. after so much of a deliberation, one obvious reason is the back that is really stopping people around me(my sch people) from encouraging me to osip. and other stuffs which i shant mention. but i realise its still very much my desire to go away and gain that experience. however, i have to submit to God. afterall, its a life i want to live for Him. so friends, please keep me in your prayers. that He will open paths for me to osip.
besides this, i have also decided to go by faith for the mission trip. i cant be saying i believe in Him on one hand and the other, deliberating over sip and stuffs. but still need to get the green light from mummy and daddy. afterall, if its His will, i'll go yeah?
ok. that's it. i'm really tired today. i've done 3/4 of reflection. so... GOOD FOR ME. at least i did some work today. i promise i'll do more work tomorrow.
