"therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. each day has enough trouble of its own" -Mt6:34
today daddy was talking about worrying is sin in the car. but the context of worrying was really not something my sis and myself ever thought about. more like my dad saying out to let himself hear. haha. shant say what is it concerning about. but i always find it funny that my dad is always going on and on with himself about the issues which we never really care. haha. my sis was like, haiya, if you have submitted to God then dont think about it. if only its so easy.
sometimes, i think i enjoy this kind of adrenaline rush? you know, trying to secure your placement, the fierce competition and all. its exciting. really. but when you drag it longer, that adrenaline rush is no longer the same, where we feel so much excitement within. ok. someone define me the word worry. is it thinking about the problem that is unsolved non-stop or what? i mean, i dont know. sometimes i see people who suffered so much and they still remain optimistic in life, and i wonder why. my friend said, perhaps we havent gone through worst scenario. and to us, the problem we are going through now are the biggest problem ever in our life. if only we have that level of maturity that we're actually living a life filled with so much blessing, life will be so much easier to live wont it be?
i'm really lifting it up to Him. that's why i felt this week is like a breeze. however, i dont know why, it took a turn yesterday. was it the rejection? or was it because i just feel frustrated? ok, what's the difference?! its annoying me like no ones business actually. like how some people actually make it seem like i'm not putting in enough effort to try to gain my placement. and some probably just console me for the sake of doing so since i am complaining to them. ahhhhhhhhhh. crap larx. it will be a better day tomorrow. AMEN!