i'm having lots of thoughts going through my mind currently, but i just dont know how to put it down nicely. so pardon me if i get incoherent(as usual) ya?
nope, i'm still feeling gay(happy) about life and all. ever since my trip, my perspective changed somehow i guess. towards life and many more things. and i definitely found a lot more reason to pray. not just for my own needs, but for others, for the wonderful creation He created. He has been faithful to me! really. if i calculate my sch hours now for you, it can probably finished in 1 and a half day larx. and the rest of the days, i'm free. well, not exactly, since i have my projects datelines coming up. however, i'm still feeling cool about everything. in fact, if i'm willing to work hard for one whole day, i believe i can finish quite a bit of stuffs. but then again, i cant exactly sit still. haha. anyhow, everything is really cool in my life now. (:
however, i cant help but want to take a step forward and ask Him, what's next? my dad spoke to me not too long ago about my future and all. everyone's asking me what do i want to do, and frankly speaking i dont know. to work? to study? work what? study what? hmmm. daddy is willing to send me away, IF i cant meet the mark for Singapore's uni. its not easy getting into Singapore's uni with my grades. i mean, of course no harm trying, but then again, i'm not in the dean's list or anything. so need to snatch space. hahaha. looked through some of the overseas option and, well, its affordable for my school fees that is. but accomodation and all will probably gonna cost my parents quite abit. i'm VERY unwilling to spend so much money larx. not about feeling pai seh, but rather, dont want it to affect our current lifestyle when we're pretty much comfortable in our spending and all. oh well, gonna go attend all those further education talks and going for IDP this coming august to see the aussie's uni. need lots of prayer for guidiance and all, so friends, keep me in your prayers ya? (:
if you do not understand the above paragraph, never mind. just dont take it that i'm going away, cause i'm NOT. or rather, nothing is confirmed larx. yup. that's perhaps the biggest worry i have, since everything else is more or less settled. yeah.
my tutor asked whether are we excited about our internship. actually, i am, since i'm learning something totally different from what i've been trained to. haha. but then again, another part of me is very unwilling to work there, cause of the distance and i know the commitment i need to put in. yeah. haha. so contradicting eh?
today, went shopping with my friend. well, not exactly shopping. just walking and looking around. went to haagen dazs to settle our long awaited craving for ice-cream. sadly, din really satisfy us. but oh well. haha. anyway, she asked if i would consider becoming a chef. i seriously would LOVE to be one. afterall, being exposed during year2, i found that passion. its like fun you know. but then i know my parents arent exactly happy about that. afterall, being a chef you're the person at the back and stuff. actually its perception larx. haha. (OB theories. (: ) yup. but anyway, we'll see about that interest that i have larx. but if any of you reading this, are interested in pursuing that line, visit at-sunrice.com they have a list of programs for you and even provides apprenticeship for you. it's cool. (: its about the passion to cook that beautiful dish for someone to appreciate ya.
oh, suddenly got reminded of what i read in Osward Chambers today. about not freting is it? oh that's yesterday. its titled- Don't Plan without God. ohmygoodness. right smack in the face. haha. ok. shant plan anymore! have to consult Him. hahaha. oh well, good to have all these little reminders. it's nice. (:
why people say that when you prefer sunrise will you be a more optimistic person? because you take it that its always a new beginning? but, what's wrong with having the preferance of a sunset? we're bold enough to look forward to the darkness ahead. and we know that after a while, or perhaps even a sleep, the darkness will go away ultimately, cause only true light reign in the world! (:
