oh yah, all my friends out there. i cherish every moment i have with you. i thank you for the moment i popped in your mind. i'm sorry for not contacting you. i'm sorry for not telling you certain things .i'll be back so, forget me not
-choonyang
he wrote that back in his last blog entry 8september. and i read it yesterday. it's as if he expected himself to go.
there's no confusion like this. though its not new. but the feeling just seem so real and unknown each time i have to go through this.
you know, i go through all these till sometimes i feel its a joke. like when my sis found out, she asked my dad "why amanda's friends always die?" and another of my friend found out and went.."again?" its funny isn't it? but its painful.
i have to admit, choonyang and me, we both ain't exactly the closest of friend. however, as a class of 4e3_2003, we're close. there's no class like 4e3 then the one in 2003. how we always gang up to disturb each other. how we bond with our teachers. how we cared for each other. we're not a separate entity but we're one entity. how we chiong "O" levels together, and be a pride to our teachers (even though our results aint fantastic). there's just so much memory that is running through my mind.
from total strangers, to acquaintance , to friends, to good friends.
you're special, always special. because there can only be one choonyang in my life, in the life of 4e3_2003 people.
i'll miss you choonyang.
because you din give me the chance to say my last goodbye. because you were so heartless to leave all of us without a single hint because you din give me a chance to redeem myself and be a good friend to you. because you trash the hope of a complete 4e3_2003 gathering. but more then this, because you're choonyang, a friend i'll never get to meet again.
perhaps, i have to thank you too.
for a cruel and expensive lesson.
thank you for teaching me the lesson of the fragility of life and the realness of it. not being active in maintaining a friendship not being active in sharing the gospel..
looks like, its goodbye forever my dear friend.
just cause you told us to not forget you, with the promise that you'll be back..