Rejoice! Rejoice! O Israel to thee shall come Emmanuel
indeed, it's time to rejoice! for our Lord God is with us!
time passes so fast, so much i forgot about updating my blog until NOW!
ok, truth be told, i was too lazy. hahaha.
so, in any case, 2006 flew past, and now comes 2007.
for me personally, 2006 was a roller coaster for me, especially on my emotions. most of the time, i allow my emotions to get the better of me. which lands me in a lot of slumps. one moment i'm on a high, and the next, *bam* i'm down in the valley.
through this 12months. i lost 2 people.
one of them is someone i respected a lot! the person who brought back my passion for music and singing. the person who gave me chance to prove my worth, that studies though its important, isn't everything. the person who scolds me and forces me to do a lot of things that i do not like, but for my own good. the person who expose me to many leadership opportunities as well as a chance to showcase what i have. the person who loves me much more then i can imagine. the person who cares for me when i'm sick, provide a listening ear to my problem, sometimes even send me home.
Mdm Ong, you're very much missed by Amanda! i've moved on from the lost. i'm sorry i don't think of you very often, but please believe in my heart, i'll never forget you. (:
another one whom i lost not too long ago. my classmate for 2yrs. the only guy in my row. one of the guy who went to malacca and penang with me. the most gentlemanly guy i ever know. the guy who likes to be called yang. the guy who gets bullied by the girls willingly. the guy who lends a listening ear to his friends. the guy who always gives. the one who left, leaving me in a wreck cause i din get to say bye. the guy who i'll remember as my friend.
Choonyang. thank you for your friendship. they mean a lot to me, not because you have left. simply because you belong to 4e3_2003 and this class means the world to me. you're on my mind.
for choonyang, it took really a while before i got myself out of the slump. everything was too sudden, and most importantly, i never thought it would happen to him. its just hard to imagine. i dont want to say perhaps its a lesson for us all to cherish, neither do i want to say it is a release for him. all i want to say and all i believe is that God is indeed souverign at that point in time. (:
my internship wasn't going on very well too as i try hard to fit in, try hard to perform. i realise they were all actions of running after the wind. just felt everything was meaningless. and so, i allow myself to go into the slumps AGAIN. its scary and definitely tough being a christian in the marketplace.
however, i was suddenly reminded of being salt and light of the world. i don't know how, i don't know why that can strike a chord in my heart. but its most probably the conviction of the holy spirit that spur me to want to look forward to internship, to bring life out of myself for that last stretch of my internship.
can you see how whenever i'm in a slump, God will somehow, one way or another pull me out when its due time? He's just awesome!!
of course, beside all these rubbishy time, there were great and awesome time i have!!
one main highlight is definitely the China Mission trip. i've learnt so much, of being quiet and just listening to my surroundings, to the heart cry of the people. so much so, at some point in the trip, i felt like breaking down and crying, cause i felt His pain. in the trip, God showed me His power too! His hand was definitely on us, leading us through that trek we had. if it's without God, i don't think we'll be back home so safe! then seeing the heart beat of the people there. sigh, everything i think of, i'm sure i'll be able to link it all back to China. that is one main thing that has been keeping me going for so long!
another highlight, is probably ymlc. it was really feeling God's love for me. can still recall when i saw the prayer the pastor had for me, i thought it was a joke. like, i could write that and say its God's purpose for you for this conference. but it just dawn upon me about His great love for me was really what he wants to remind me in the conference on the last night. felt so much of His great love.
but you know what? God sprang lots of little surprises to me throughout the year. just like how He blessed me with new friends, and renew old friendships..
people like sharm, kevyn, marcus, royston, yiling, potatoes, joshie, xian, wohwoh, corrin, miguel and ETC. thanks for your wonderful friendship. (:
thank you Lord for blessing me with all these people plus my family! ur daily blessings u give to me, i count them all. cause i wanna praise you and thank you! (:
alrighty, will talk about new year plans in the next entry, if i ever get here. dont accuse me for not blogging cause i did!