Tuesday, February 27, 2007 The love of her life is drifting away Their losing the fight for another day The life that she’s known is falling apart A fatherless home, a childs broken heart You’re holding her hand You’re straining for words You’re trying to make sense of it all She’s desperate for hope Darkness clouding her view She’s looking to you Just love her like Jesus Carry her to him His yoke is easy His burden is light You don’t need the answers To all of life’s questions Just know that He loves her Stay by her side And love her like Jesus Love her like Jesus The gifts lie in wait in a room painted blue A little blessing from heaven will be there soon Hope fades into night,Blue skies turn into grey As the little one slips away You’re holding her hand You’re straining for words You’re trying to make sense of it all They’re desperate for hope Darkness clouding their view They’re looking to you Lord of all creation holds our life in His hand The God of all the nations holds our lives in His hands The rock of our salvation holds our lives in His hands He cares for them just as He cares for you. sigh.. the most heartbreak and heartwrenching monday this year.. it did not occur to me how much pain i will feel as well till i left that place.. hearing her story.. hearing all her dreams and plans and hopes crashed gone changed because of this fateful event.. sudden.. yes.. its too sudden.. for her.. her family and even her friends-us to accept the fact.. sinking into this reality is scary.. i dont know.. death.. is still very much something that affects humans the most and a test that people have to go through so many questions what happened? why did this happened? how can this happen? what is to come? will the suffering end? will the pain end? why is it some people just have it all? why some have to go through so much? what is God's plan? where is God in this kind of situation? i don't know. i think i need God very very much now as well. i'm in this desert looking for a way out. perhaps i took a wrong turn, and thus i am lost. i dont know. i really dont know. this song so fits into what my friend is going through. who is there to heal her broken heart? its God isn't it? but she doesnt know God. so i'm supposed to be the catalyst. but i'm helpless too. i dont know what is going on. suddenly it seems that money is in control of life.. it's not.. its not supposed to be this way!!! God is supposed to be in control of life.. not money.. but money can clear debts.. money can feed the family.. money can sustain the family.. no.. money CANNOT be in control of our lives!!! ahhhhhhhhh God i need you!!! i need you to give me strength to be a support in her life! she needs me.. i need YOU!! i want to love her and her family like you do! i know i love her because she's my dear friend.. but God.. i DONT KNOW what to do.. cause i all do is see her cry.. telling me her story.. what can i say to make her feel better? i dont want to hear "there's nothing you can do but just pray" i mean.. i know i have to pray for her.. but.. i want to do something that is TANGIBLE that can soothe her a little. i dont know. God.. tell me HOW.. WHAT.. WHY.. i want answers.. i need answers!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i want something tangible now!!!!! :( even though i'm in the state of confusion.. this is all i have to say.. darkness may come.. but it last only for awhile.. when it becomes the darkest point of life.. it also means light is coming.. and so.. at this time.. my hand is there to hold on to.. my shoulder is there to lean on.. my ear is there to listen.. and i'm just there.. because i love you like jesus.. Labels: confusion, death, questions He blessed me at 12:07 AM |